Hi.
Posting here for traffic, and also because I'm not sure else where to post. And maybe this is about my relationship with myself and those I love.
I am, on the surface, totally normal. I have a loving husband and 2 teenagers (late teens).
But, I do a weird thing, and I have done ever since I can remember, and I've been wondering lately, if it's a condition?
Either way, it won't affect me greatly, but at mid 40's now, I'd like to learn why I am doing this.
Ok. So..
If I see something awful on the TV (crash scene/murder scene/freak accident scene etc) and I have the misfortune to swallow when I am looking at it, I feel as though I have swallowed that bad luck into myself and that someone near to me will be hurt. I then have to look away from the picture and kind of cough it out of me and blow it away.
I realise how fucking nuts this sounds! I'm an Ex Bank Manager and now I run my own business....I'm not a nut...what the fuck is this about?
I'm pretty sure I'm not OCD, as I'm tidy, but not over the top at all, I can go weeks without bothering about dusting/cleaning.
I know when I was young, I did weird stuff too. I couldn't touch the banister in the house without thinking I'd get a virus, and I had to do a ritual to free me from that. I also did a weird thing when I was little, which involved frequently opening my mouth really wide, It drove my parents nuts!
Gosh, I sound mad, and I'm really not! I've not told anyone about any of this.
Any insight would be good. Bloody hell, If I read this as an outsider I would scoff, it just sounds so mad!
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Why do I display this behaviour?
whatisthisabout · 12/04/2016 21:30
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