Sorry if this is a bit rambling. Some background, divorced with 3 DC. Met DP 3 years ago and we have a 1 year old baby. The DC adore him, he's hard working, generous, doesn't drink/fight/gamble etc etc (all the usual stuff people say before the bad stuff)!
I don't really know how to say what I mean but he has a huge problem with insecurity which I think he hid very well at the beginning of the relationship. I think its probably always been there but he just hid it well or there wasn't really any opportunity for it to come out.
In general he seems to think I don't really care if he's here or not. I am quite independent which I don't think he is use to. But being happy to spend the day alone or not being bothered if he wants to go out or go fishing for the weekend. Im a grown woman and happy for us both to have our 'own' lives because we do do things together.
All of his comments are 'jokey' but not really a joke IYKWIM. Because i've pulled him up on stuff before he now just says he is joking when its clear he isn't. I'll put some examples because I realise this is all a bit rambling.
My friend got engaged. I said oh x got engaged today! His first reaction was 'oh that will be a nice hen do for you then' I said er yeah hadn't really thought about it. He said oh well maybe you'll meet someone nice to have a dance with. I said WTF are you on about, are you implying something? He said 'no just joking, if you want to dance with people you will'. Written down this seems so weird but he said it in a jokey type way.
I mentioned that I was going to join the gym. He said oh you can come with me when I go. I said bugger off i'm going to get away from the kids lol you can have them. He said oh well you'll make some new friends lots of nice men at the gym.
Yesterday I was out for the day with the kids and was telling him about what we had done. He said I bet you don't think about me slaving away lol. I said what are you on about of course I do. He said bollocks you do. But he says it laughing and joking.
I'm not sure if I am going mad and seeing stuff that isn't there or not. Previously we had huge insecurity stuff around my ex husband which seems to have gone now. I did give him an ultimatum that I wasn't going to spend my life with his jealousy whenever I needed to text or see ex husband around kid stuff. After that it seemed to stop but this low level joking insecurity is still ongoing.
My worry is that because DD is only a year old he doesn't really have any experience of 'me' without small DC i.e. going out with friends, weekends away, having my own life and as she gets older it will just get worse as I become more independent from small DC.
Any thoughts?
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CroissantsandJam · 06/04/2016 11:34
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