I must say, looking back to my first proper love. We got together when I was 16 and he was 20 and we were together for four years. Very, very much in love and then I am honestly not quite sure what happenned.
I think I hit 20 myself, started a new job, started going out more and flexing my muscels a bit in terms of enjoying attention from other men. As we'd aged, I'd gotten a little chubby and he'd developed into some sort of Greek God who could have any woman he wanted.
I got very insecure and so started to flirt with others, and he did truly love me and was hurt. I think then some absolutely stunning woman six years older than me asked him out and in the edn he split up with me and started seeing her.
Heartbroken isn't the word, I was devastated and took a job overseas, and over the next 4 or 5 years he would occassionaly write to me and occassionally come and see me and we'd always end up in bed and then he would leave again - breaking my heart all over again.
I cut him off in the end when I was about 25 because I knew I needed to move on but I never loved anyone the same way again (until this most recent guy).
Anyway, recently ran into the family of my first love and his mother and sister told me that all he had ever said for the past 10 years was that he'd never loved another woman again after me and that he'd always thought he'd find it again and never did. They both said I was his true love and he'd never gotten over it and in truth he has messaged me a couple of times the last few years very nostalgic messages too.
So I guess in that case he would have come back maybe but never made the choice to.
With this new one, we were only together a short time - but oh so in love! I'd not felt like that since I was 20 about anyone but I think he just couldn't quite see it.
He's a veyr honest man, not prone to too many words but he did say things like he'd never felt so much attraction for a woman before and he found it hard to stay away from me or stop thinking about me and that when he was with me he was the happiest he ever was.
I have felt like slapping him around the head with a big book saying "that's because we are in love, you fool!" but I just don't think he realised it. I do think in my gut it was there though. Suprising and unexpected and ill times and many hurdles between us but it was just there.
I am really, really hoping he misses me and realises he made a huge mistake letting me go!!!
If he doesn't, C'est La Vie