My husband killed himself a month ago after I had discovered an affair at our shared place of work. I'd kicked him out, he was potentially going to lose his job because of it and his drinking and other areas of his behaviour had made me worried to leave the children with him overnight. He spent a week in the wilderness begging me to take him back and fretting about his job and then jumped in front of a tube train.
Anyway, it's awful and I am feeling very low. I will be going back to work in a couple of months and feel like my career is in tatters (I had been running the company and he had also been senior; this girl was a junior there who I scarcely knew. She's gone but I am still struggling with the concept of going back). I also worry how I will cope with three under 7 alone and I'm devastated he could have done this - any of it - to me and them.
I had been mentally preparing for single life for a lot of last year as it had been obvious that our marriage was floundering so to be honest, I feel like I'd like to meet someone else in the not too distant. The reason I am posting here (and not in 'Bereavement') is because I want to believe this isn't 'it' for me. That I could meet someone else (even with my three children) and that I could be happy again. I'm sitting there in tears at the bleakness of it all at the moment and could do with hearing some uplifting stories of single people with lots of kids finding happiness again. I am 40 years old and my kids are 18 months, 5 and 7.
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dilys4trevor · 14/02/2016 08:09
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