I really don't if I should be posting on this site but I am a desperate man in need of some help / advice pleeeeeaase... Am I being unreasonable?
Umm, where do I start? I think she loves me but I don't believe she's IN-LOVE with me - is there a difference; yes, I think deffo. My dw & I have been married for 16 yrs(gulp, where does time go?) and for the most part, we have been pretty happy until the last 3 yrs or so. We have 3 nippers who are all challenging and make life v. hard work, normal I know.
Why do I think the above? Because, she shows me no affection, rarely kisses me, not interested in being intimate, but shows her family/siblings plenty of affection. Like many many parents, we rarely spend decent time together. Therefore, I have planned a couple of surprise trips minus the kids and I really hope, REALLY HOPE that this will help to get things a little more on track. By nature, I am not good at telling her what I really feel. I tell her that I love her, tell her that she looks great in XYZ, buy flowers out of the blue, send her texts with some short note about how much I love her (she just thinks this is cheesy) leave post-its telling her nice stuff, cook, help out here and there with household chores and help out with the kids etc etc,. I try really hard but feel it's just falling on deaf ears and it's rarely appreciated. She never tells me she loves me (only in reply to my gestures), pulls away from me if I try and kiss her on the lips (no, my breath doesn't stink!). I even held the fort whilst she went away for 10 days and when she got back, it was like she has never been away. The stress bucket has returned to the house.
I don't think she will want to go to marriage counselling but I will try anything. I adore her even though she often drives me nuts (!). I am also undergoing therapy for depression (caused by this maybe?) and an anxiety disorder.
Should I write a long letter telling how I really feel or is this bad form? I am really lonely, lost and in desperate need of love and affection. I think this is allowed? Am I being unreasonable?
Sorry for the long long rant.... hoping for some help.
Mumsnet has not checked the qualifications of anyone posting here. If you need help urgently or expert advice, please see our domestic violence webguide and/or relationships webguide. Many Mumsnetters experiencing domestic abuse have found this thread helpful: Listen up, everybody
Relationships
I think she loves me, but she's not IN LOVE with me....
Bashfulbear · 08/02/2016 18:10
Don’t want to miss threads like this?
Weekly
Sign up to our weekly round up and get all the best threads sent straight to your inbox!
Log in to update your newsletter preferences.
You've subscribed!
To comment on this thread you need to create a Mumsnet account.