I'm 27, a student nurse and full time mum. I'm a single parent since finding out exp wanted to terminate and chose the girl he was having an affair with.
This conjured a big move to move back near some family.
Family help a little bit but are Ill themselves. I have a supportive neighbour. All the girls are out tonight and I can't go- no babysitter, no money.
Dd doesn't see her dad very often despite a court order.
She's in full time childcare as I work too. So I try to be fun in front of her. She's 3.5.
She shouldn't have just witnessed her mum break down the way she did.
Four years, four years of being stuck in this life. I love DD so much, my best friend, all I have.
Everything I do is a struggle, never any money, lack of sleep through worrying. I'm fat, overweight and I mess up everything I try to do. Nothing ever goes right. I try my best and I'm nothing but a failure.
Four years being trapped, four years of pretending I'm okay despite being on anti depressants. Four years of having no friends and no idea what to say to the ones I do have. Pity party- no thanks
Four years since someone just held me. Cuddled me? Was there for me. I just walk along on my own now. Everything is down to me.
There's absolutely nothing I can do, there's nothing much left in me. I've given up thinking life will change and listening to those who say it will and I'll have a family. It's not true.
I need help, just to accept this is my life and just get used to it. I made these choices.
How do I accept it all? This is all my bleak life will be? It's all there is and ever will be X
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NorfolkEnchantsToday · 30/01/2016 18:03
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