I'm a horrible person and I've realised this today, me and dh are at breaking point. We have been terrible for a while now. I'm terribly insecure, I question EVERYTHING, who he's texting, where he is, accuse him of cheating, looking at other women etc etc and I didn't realise how bad I had become. I have terrible insecurities about myself, I hate myself Infact. I feel really ugly, horrible and not good enough. I can say nasty things but so does dh while arguing. There's just something I can't get over, a while ago I found dh looking at escorts, I also found him talking to a friend of his while I was in bed (who is a well known escort) all conversation was deleted. He claims he was just looking and wasn't interested. I've also found him looking at a lot of transsexual stuff which he later admitted he likes, I've never known this. This was all a good while back but I feel inadequate. So I get defensive and nasty and make everyone's life's a misery because I can't get over stupid things. I want to make this work and I want to be a better person because I feel like a terrible controlling horrible person.
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