I have been separated for over four years now. I now recognise the marriage as emotionally abusive in many ways. Shortly after splitting from my ex-H I got involved with a man who turned out to be untrustworthy in many ways but I ended it and enjoyed being single since then. I've spent some enjoyable time on my own with the odd casual fling/dating etc. I have a decent job, my own house, teenage children. Recently met someone and it all feels more serious and with potential to be longer term. He treats me well, we have fun together, he is very caring, gentle and considerate and it's all enjoyable.
However, at the weekend I was looking through some old photographs from the time I was married and got a shock at my appearance. I was very thin and also looked quite beautiful but had a sad and kind of haunted look in my eyes in many (including wedding photos). Seeing these photos has brought back a lot of the trauma of my marriage. I feel sad for the person I was and also shame that I 'let' it happen. It's affecting my current relationship as I feel reluctant to get further involved, despite having strong feelings for him. I want to talk to my current partner but I am scared of opening myself up. He knows that there is something on my mind. The other day I was really low and he asked me what it was but I couldn't tell him. He hugged me and then we did something nice together to take my mind off it. I don't know what to do.
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Summerlovinf · 27/01/2016 17:13
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