This might be long! sorry!
I am 28, single mum of a child aged 3. Pregnancy was unexpected, partner left for someone else.
I grew up up north and my mum is there, I currently live sw near my father and stepmother. I moved back here when I found out I was pregnant.
I am a student nurse, first year.
I suffer from anxiety and depression and am 40mg citalopram and 30mg of mirtazapine. These are constantly being upped
I am around 5 stone overweight, my meds don't help with loosing it. My dad says im fat and disgusting
My father has liver cancer, but is still drinking 1 pint a day despite saying he doesn't have a problem, my stepmum also drinks. I thought they were shutting me out by shielding me, now I realise they shut me out as they don't want to hear me in their words 'preach about drinking'
I am lonely, I have maybe 1-2 friends, I have no help with Dd, she is in full time childcare 7am-7pm and I pick her up early when I can. My childcare bill is around £950 a month.
I work, I have a dog, I have the house.
I am very close to my mum up north.
I was very very close to dad and stepmum
I can never get a date etc
I come home and sit myself night after night.
DD never sees her father.
That's the background:
Currently I feel lonely, isolated and like a little girl. Theres so much going on around me and I don't know what to do. Dad shuts me out and regularly calls me selfish.
I have no social life, I have nothing.
I feel stuck. Ive been single 4 years.
I just do not know what to do with life.
I feel like shutting up shop.
I honestly don't know how much longer I can ride this out.
Four years, my life fell apart and I feel so trapped.
I can never do right for doing wrong.
Sorry I just needed to get this out.
I feel utterly wretched, useless and just pretty crap tbf.
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I think i need some guidence or some perspective
Shakerlackerboomboom · 11/12/2015 13:01
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