I posted on here a while back when I realised I was living a life walking on egg shells as were (are?) our DC's as my DH was someone who lost his temper at the slightest thing and the DC's could do nothing right in his eyes alot of the time. Since then, we have spoken alot and he knows that I am at a point where I don't think I want to continue the relationship. However since the talks he has really changed, has not blamed me or the kids for the way he has behaved and acknowledged his temper was out of order and we should not have been living that way. He is helping out around the house, he is trying to show an interest in me and he is controlling his temper and he admits to being much happier for doing so. My problem is that I am struggling to love him again, I am still relieved when he is out of the house and I really don't enjoy being physically close to him. I struggle to have a relaxed conversation with him (not his fault) and I can't regain the feelings I used to have for him (although I have never really enjoyed being intimately close with him but always blamed contraception for feeling this way. I don't know what to do. I don't know if I need to give it more time as it has only been a couple of months since his behaviour has changed (it was years of it before) or are these feelings I'm never going to get back? We spoke last night and he wants to know what I want to do because he says he is happy to continue with the changed behaviour if he knows there is light at the end of the tunnel but if I know in my heart I don't want to stay he wants to know now, which I suppose is fair enough but I don't know what I want in my heart, or maybe I do and just can't face it. He also said if we split I would be responsible for taking everything away from the dcs - nice house, all the things they want etc and I don't want to do that. The way he is at the moment, I know me deciding to split would be a completely selfish move and maybe if I can change my mindset then I can be happy... I am not even sure we can afford to split anyway! I'm sorry, this is a long ramble and I appreciate I am the only one who can come up with the final answer, I just needed to get it out there I suppose and see if anyone has any opinions. Thank you for your patience in reading.
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