I really wanted to ask this for a long time. Basically before my husband and I decided to get married we both always discussed where we would eventually move. We had all kinds of ideas (some silly, some serious) but the main one was that one day we'd move back to my hometown where I grew up because all my friends and family are there and it really is a beautiful place. He had nothing against this and seemed excited about it. He always said "yeah I don't even like my job at all, and I just want to get out of this area". We visited there all the time and had the time of our lives. I found myself so happy and smiling and laughing so hard I couldn't breathe. That doesn't seem to happen here. Because I am alone here.
Neither of us have friends or family here and it's been a hard struggle to live here (it's really expensive and the transportation is so horrible I feel isolated all the time). I became pregnant with my son who is now 10 months old, and so we put our plans on hold for the last year and several months. For the time being we moved to a bigger apartment and didn't talk about moving back to my hometown. As time went on though, my desire to move closer to my friends and family became strong again mainly because my grandma is dying and I want to move close to her to see her and let her be a part of her grandson's life. My best friend also lives there with her son, and she's always happy to see us. Also it's SUCH a beautiful place that is pretty much the ideal picture of a great place to raise kids (I know because I grew up there and I wouldn't mind the support of family/friends).
I talked to this with my husband but recently notice he has no interest anymore. He growls at me and gets really angry if I bring it up in the slightest. This has really gotten me down. I was so looking forward to being close to family again and living there again (I even dream about living there). My husband's been really miserable recently because he works 15 hours per day on average. He never ever has friends over or sees any friends...and if I want to visit some old friends now he gets jealous and doesn't allow me to go.
I've been stuck in this city for 7 years now and never intended to stay here forever. Meeting my husband here made me stay. He says things like "you just have to appreciate the fact that we have a place and I'm the breadwinner, and there's a roof over your son's head" he makes me sound like I'm crazy, like I'm not thinking logically. He doesn't want to give up his job now. I feel sort of like I've been hit in the back of the head with a baseball bat or something, like all of a sudden this means my future is now here.
I can't follow my dreams now, I can't ever leave, I can't ever be around my family and friends ever again. I've always wanted to move back there with a passion and he knew this...and now I can't. It's made me rather depressed. Sometimes I even feel like if I never met him I'd be long gone by now, but I don't want to think like that as I do love him a lot. I feel so torn.
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I want to move but my husband doesn't?
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WinterForest · 12/09/2015 00:26
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