I think I have decided to end my marriage and just looking for both support so that I don't change my mind (need reminders of why I'm doing this and what he really is) and also advice on what to do next and how this will play out.
Back story is we have been together for 8 years, married for 4. We now have 2 very young DC. We moved overseas 6 years ago and I believe that's when he first cheated. The 'full' story didn't come out until after we were married- when I was 5 months pregnant he went out on a work networking thing and slept with someone else. He didn't remember that he had (or so he says) as he was so drunk and I was the one who told him, with some damming evidence. When confronted with this, he confessed to the earlier incident which he had always denied. I heard that he'd change, things would be different, everything would be open (bank/credit accounts, phone, emails) we'd go to counselling etc. etc. The usual spiel. So I was pregnant, miles from home, jobless etc. so said I'd give it a year for him to improve a lot of things about his behaviour. Other than the obvious, his drinking too. He did this and has thrown himself fully into the dad role and is actually brilliant with them. I did not expect to see that kind of a change.
So this brings me to now. I still have a lot of unanswered questions about what happened in the past and do not believe that he has been fully open. I am 100% sure that there are still things that he hides from me. So one issue is that I need to get to the bottom of what happened with the first person in the past- he says he slept with her twice. I think that it was more of a relationship and he made trips to visit her, gave her money etc. The second issue is that I think he might still on occasion sleep around. He travels for business a lot to places where it is common in his industry for guys to cheat on their wives. Absolutely not acceptable, but I've heard people talk about this like it's no thing. They go back to their families after a few days away and continue on with family life until the next trip. I have seen messages from his colleagues that are suggestive of this.
Over the last few days I have been snooping and gathered a few bits of evidence (nothing that says exactly what is going on outright), but I think enough to make me feel pretty sure. I have literally just decided today that this is the end. But I need help in seeing it through because I have thought this in my head many times before but never even raise it with him as family life is good. We spend a lot of time together with the kids, we get on well, have a laugh, are intimate etc. and he is always around. He rarely leaves me home alone for a night out. Plays the family man role really well. However, when he is on business I think it is a different story.... Once he is on the plane I think we are all but forgotten.
I have decided not to say anything until next week because it is DCs birthday tomorrow and we are having a party then the following day we are going on holiday. So my idea was to bring it up when we get back. I'm worried about changing my mind, because today I feel strong about going it alone but I'm weak.
Any advice, comments etc. would be really helpful! I particularly want to hear about others' experiences of what they did and what happened next. Other than confronting him, I don't really know what to do next.
Thanks
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whattheactualf · 05/08/2015 11:04
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