I've been in an unhealthy relationship/marriage now for years. Not all bad, it's either very good or pretty bad. I'm such a weak person I put up with his crap because I'm just so scared of being on my own (and now with a toddler). I hate myself for having no self respect and letting him do this to me. Even now, I don't want to separate I just want to be happy with him and our family.
We separated a few months ago and in that time we have attended a couple of counselling sessions and have been spending a few nights a week together, still having sex etc. I look back now and know he's just using me. Just Last week he sat in the counselling session and said I was paranoid for questioning his faithfulness. Last night I found he was texting a girl whilst sat in our house with our child, me sitting metres away from him.
I know I need to end this now but whenever I think about him with anyone else I feel so sick. He's manipulative and emotionally abusive, it's highly unlikely that he could ever truly make me happy again so why can't I just tell him to leave me alone? I really bloody hate myself sometimes. I have no family really and I feel like I cling on to him for some kind of love. It's like I need him to want me, just for someone to.
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Sularoo · 04/08/2015 11:13
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