Long looong history. In brief, abusive (emotionally and physically to me as a child) narc mother, distant generally rubbish father. Parents have hideously unhappy marriage but have never divorced.
My father now has memory problems and my mother used it as a tool for drama / abuse. She still expects him to basically be her butler, but he's not up to it and everything keeps going wrong. At which point she blames him and holds it against him. I have firmly told her she needs to just do / double check stuff herself (booking stuff, online shopping etc) but she just doesn't. She has far too much fun waiting for him to mess up and then making a massive fucking drama out of it.
Their lives are getting more and more chaotic. They live in chaos (hoarders) but refuse all help. Mother rampages around all night and sleeps all day. Is totally dysfunctional and cannot engage in normal life at all anymore.
Separately, my mother has successfully emotionally blackmailed me into living really near her until this year when I just couldn't stand it anymore. She doesn't bother to see me much, just wants me there as a mental comfort blanket. We thought we'd found a house a few months ago but it fell through.
Now I'm pregnant. I keep putting off telling them. Every single other normal milestone in my adult life that I've announced to then they've been unbelievably weird about. They're never happy about anything. They never bring any support or positivity to anything. They will be useless awful grandparents. At the moment I just can't even be bothered to tell them.
I'm also heartbroken that we won't be moving house before the baby arrives, and am seething with resentment over this as if I'd never let her control me over this before, we'd be settled where we want to be by now.
I just hate them, and hate having them in my life. They're nothing but a drain and a burden and have never ever given me anything enjoyable or positive.
Sorry. Needed to unload.
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I wish my parents just didn't exist
Sleepybeanbump · 02/06/2015 14:26
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