Hi just wondered on people's thoughts about this. I'm a single mum with 2 gorgeous children, I have very little help as no support network really, away from family members. I left my husband 5 years ago of course that was stressful, I did meet someone else, to cut a long story short I realised he wasn't the one and was no good for me and my children, very controlling and moody! I had a hard time getting him out my life but boy did things get worse. A friend introduced me to someone else saying 'I don't know why he's single' . I soon realised why, he was single, he was abusive mentally and physically he raped me, he was always loosing his temper, the police, domestic violence team were involved when I was trying to get rid of him. I'd be running away with my children, I was living on my own with loads of threats from him every day few months. I cried so much during that time but I found the strength from somewhere to deal with it all and keep him away from us. During this time my house got broken into, there was a leak in my house that damaged the house. My car died and I had to find a way of getting a new one, deal with all this on my own. I then moved house which was stressful, it fell through a few times and I was running out of money.
Eventually though I did move to a smaller house, I started to relax, enjoy life, make new friends, spend quality time with my children, get my business off the ground, I started feel more confident and I eventually met someone else very slow at first but it gradually got stronger, we went away together, I laughed a lot, I was happy at last, the children were happy and doing well at school. Then my body just started to change, I felt very tired at first had tests for iron etc, but all ok. Tried to carry on then I started to stop sleeping even though I was exhausted, then panic attacks started which I'd never experienced before. Fainting,I was depressed and emotional just couldn't stop crying even though there was no reason and I was happy. I felt complete panic all the time, haunted even it was the worst feeling I'd ever experienced I thought I was going to die,which made me panic even more. It was so hard as I had 2 children to look after, but I needed someone to look after me. My bf did his best but he lived 30 mins away and has his own kids. I eventually ended up on anti depressants, sleeping tablets and beta blockers! I'm off the sleeping tabs now and don't often take the beta blockers, but I'm now trying to make sense of it all. Maybe after years of problems and drama and being strong my body just went bang when I finally started to relax and be happy? Has this happened to anyone else or is my theory a possibility?
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Thatslife72 · 28/05/2015 20:26
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