I'm 32. We had the internet st home from when I was about 16. Big chunk of a computer in the spare room. Anyway, as it was so new and unknown and as my parents were quite understandably naive to the risks, I was given free access and quite quickly knew how to delete history etc.
I spent t a lot of time on and in Yahoo chat rooms and music forums.
Through a music forum I got chatting to an older guy. His name was Jack. He was in his late 30s. I was so desperate for attention I was flattered. He was funny. Well he probably want but as an overweight average teen I was easily impressed.
This went on for a while, we swapped pictures, I'd put our webcam on and chat at the same time. I then started putting on little shows for him, pleasuring myself. Fuck I feel sick typing that. But he made me feel good. I think I was over 16 by this point. He'd text me, call me and we'd chat all the time. I knew very little about him. He was quite tech guy and would purposefully freak me out by doing things to my computer like freezing it and shutting it down. He somehow found out my address and parents name. He used that against me a lot.
I still stripped of on camera for him. He used to tell me afterwards sometimes that his friends had been watching too but I have no way of knowing if that's true.
He was quite controlling and a big distraction through my senior years at school. We didn't really ever plan to meet up or be together.
It was weird.
It's playing on my mind a lot. He popped up on Facebook through a music page I was looking at the other week. He'd commented on a post i was reading. It was horrible and brought it all back. I blocked him without looking at his profile. I'm scared he will 'find' me online and tell everyone about what I done. What if he's still got stills or recordings of me?
Ugh. I don't know what I'm wanting from posting. Nobody, not even dh who has known me since I was 17, knows anything about any of this.
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