I was not sure where to put this so hopefully it is ok here in relationships.
I have a massive problem with getting to grips with liking myself. I am hugely overweight which is a result if me stress and comfort eating for years now. I have known that I do it but have been unable to bring myself to try and control it. In the last month I have finally managed to get a grip and have started eating healthier and began couch to 5k. This has taken a monumental shift in my thinking and to be honest I cannot put my finger on where the motivation came from. A week or so ago I had a bad run, posted in chat and felt betterish after and did manage to pick myself up again.
Last night though, it happened again. The sensible part of me knows it was because I had not drank enough through the day and I was moving to a new level so obviously it was going to be an adjustment. But the part of me that hates myself is thinking that I am worthless, that I will never be healthy, that my life is pointless etc etc. The last night and morning I have been utterly unable to talk myself out of thinking like this.
I cannot bring myself to tell anyone in real life how I feel. And my overriding urge right now is to eat through it. I am resisting that, I know it is not a physical need. I feel so desperate, I have no idea how to break this cycle or to tackle any of these feelings in a healthy way.
I am in tears and feel ridiculous but I have disliked myself for, well basically my whole life and I need some advice on how to build myself up from this. On the face of it I know people like me, my daughter is loving and affectionate and my oh is very verbal in loving me. I have a lovely group of friends. But under all that I don't really believe it at all. In fact I often end up isolating myself assuming people would not want me around.
I cannot afford counselling at all nor trainers or the like. Has anyone got anything to help me stick on the right path now?
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hashbrownnofilter · 20/05/2015 12:54
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