I know the clue is in the word 'abusive' but I still find it hard to believe the way he is, years down the line.
I am three whole years out of an emotionally abusive marriage. He became the 'real' DH soon after our first dc was born. I was confused and vulnerable and couldn't understand what I was doing wrong, and spent a lot of time desperately trying to smooth things over, trying to create an image of the happy family life I wanted so much.
Also, I was desperate for the 'old' DH, the one who I fell in love with and the one that fell in love with me, back. It took me a long time to realise he was never coming back.
He ticked all the EA boxes. Bully, angry, controlling, alienating my friends and family, hate-filled.
I understand all these things. I became a shell of my former self: cringeing, unconfident, stammering, tearful and anxious at every turn. I couldn't understand why he was acting as if he hated me. The usual.
He made the divorce, after I finally came to my senses, as difficult and unpleasant as possible. He pulled out of agreements that were 99% done at the last minute, he was hostile, obstructive and aggrieved.
And yes, I have read Lundy Bancroft, and done therapy etc (tho' not so far the Freedom Programme) ... but what I cannot get my head around is why he persists in treating me as the Anti-Christ. He doesn't ring the children because he would have to talk to me first on the phone, he doesn't liaise about dates and weekends, he won't ask me how they are getting on at school. He barely looks at me and he never greets me during the handovers, which I try to keep as short as possible, away from the home. His manner is one of threat. He can be vicious at the drop of a hat. The children have been witness to this.
I suppose I'm asking... how long can he keep this up? If the answer is 'forever', then my question is how can I insulate myself further? I do my best to fence him off in my head, but I still find I spend far too much energy thinking about him and why he is like this.
Do I need a kick up the bum? Big Girl pants? What?
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The thing I don't get is that abusive XH treats me as if I am the Antichrist
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PoppyField · 26/04/2015 14:44
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