Dear cunt

[notjustmecunt]

When we first met I was so young, I so taken in by you. You were older, wiser, successful, charming, kind, intelligent. You were my whole world. Little did I know that I was on course for heartbreak and abuse.

I hate you with every fibre of my being and I will continue to do so. You are a cunt. You do not deserve oxygen. You did not deserve me!

You played with me, stringing me along, deciding what you wanted, when you wanted it. You have never loved me, you are a damaged person and you have destroyed all that was good in me. I hate you. You were so abusive. You are a psychopath. The lies you told, the deception, the trickery, the mocking! I hate myself for not seeing through you.

You are a cunt and I hope you burn in hell!

I loved you so much and tried so much, I even forgave you for all that cruelty but you still found it in yourself to drop me like I meant nothing to you.

I am always crying and always wishing I could understand why I deserved that. I hate you. You are a cunt!

[Quitelikely]

Sorry you went through this

One piece of advice: hating someone takes up a lot of emotional energy and induces all sorts of negativity in a person, in turn still allowing that person to spoil your days. Try to overcome if possible. You will reap the benefits.

Forgiveness is the biggest form of self interest.

[Cantbelievethisishappening]

Echo Quite. Let go of the hate. He does not deserve another second of your thoughts, emotions or feelings.
It will take time but you will get there

[Sistedtwister]

Yes I 3rd what Quite says. It takes a lot of energy to hate someone. Don't expend any more of yours on this cunt

[RubbishMantra]

Other posters are right notjustme. About the depleting waste of emotional energy. Something I read once was "It's like taking poison, but wanting someone else to feel the effects."

You were able to remove yourself from this horrible situation. Redirect the angry energy into something that's good and beneficial and healing for you, when you feel able. As soon as you can.

Do you have somebody to talk to? Or even the Samaritans. Will you go to see you GP?

And and

[something2say]

I hear what everyone is saying.

But, it being so close to the final finishing line, or so it seems from what you have written, I think perhaps there is space for you to feel pissed off.

I think you deserve to be able to get it off your chest and after that, you will be able to move on. It is not normal to not have anything to say when you have been hurt, in my view anyway. Get it off your chest I say, and good riddance.

X

[Psipsina]

This worries me a bit. Do we 'know' the OP? Is it a regular poster?

Not some bloke who's trying to have a go at one of us for example

[YetAnotherHelenMumsnet]

Hi there Psipsina,
We've had a look, and we can confirm that the OP has been with us for a good while now.

[Psipsina]

Ok thanks.

As you were OP

[chocolatedrops31]

But do we have to use this language?

[Psipsina]

I find it offensive to read, so I have hidden the thread now.

[JuliaDream]

Yes, the OP does feel the need to use this language at this moment in time.Go clutch your pearls somewhere else.

Some good advice about letting the hate go on this thread. In time you will start to move on.

Talk to someone in RL if you can't deal with it on your own.

[chocolatedrops31]

You don't have to be offensive-that language is horrible and particularly offensive to women and people's vocabularies should be wide enough to use something else.

[ArseForElbow]

Sorry you've been through this OP, my ex was an abusive cunt too, try not to let him get to you now.

[OttiliaVonBCup]

I never understood why someone needs to click on a tread they know they find offensive and then whine about it.

Click or bloody don't.

OP, sod it.

[noddyholder]

Good to get it 'out' Hope you have some good friends around to get you through this

[JuliaDream]

Hide the thread then, Chocolate.

Sometimes you need to call a cunt a cunt.

[RabidFairy]

Some people are cunts. I wouldn't normally advise it, but feel free to hide the thread as one PP did, rather than bitch about language.

So sorry you had to meet someone like this OP and that you were treated so badly. I hope getting it all down helped some.

[MrsFlannel]

Cunt is a fine word for someone who'se a shithead/arsehole/wanker.

I dislike it when people say "Oh I don't mind swearing but I hate the word cunt."

Why?

Cock doesn't get such strong reactions! Neither does nob.

OP rant away. Call him a cunt.

[notjustmecunt]

Thanks Helen

I can't really conceive how others would have been so offended that they even clicked on the thread! Sorry to those who I offended! It was not my intention! Not at all!

As Quite says and those who agree with her/him It will be me who will suffer if I don't let go and just get on. I just wanted to get something out there! Nothing more than that!

I post on here a lot! On a daily basis actually. I NC a lot always too! I didn't mean to piss anyone off. I'm already too sad to do so, even if I wanted to. But go away then! Don't post or reply! Go away if it's something you can't deal with!

[trappedinsuburbia]

Go for it OP i hope you feel a little better for a good rant, never mind the pearl clutchers, they've obviously never met a right cunt.