I recently split up with a boyfriend who showed all the signs of being an abuser. He displayed lots of red flags - over the top gestures and flattery when we first met, telling me he loved me etc within a few days of meeting. It didn't take too long for the jealous/controlling/needy side to come to the surface - he didn't like me seeing my friends or doing stuff without him or with me not telling him my whereabouts. He started having a go at me at an all manner of stuff that I had apparently done wrong. Therefore he finally got his ass well and truly dumped.
I have bad relations with my other ex, who is the father to my DD. He is crap with maintenance payments and keeping dates to see DD. He criticises my parenting skills whilst not really doing very much parenting himself. Told me last minute this year that he doesn't have the time or enough money to see DD at all over the Christmas period.
I am NC with my parents. They were very abusive to me throughout my childhood, adolescence and adulthood and quite frankly, don't want to get into it all in this thread.
I've been up very early with DD today and have had a busy day so am completely exhausted.
I keep feeling like the world is against me, that every thing I try to do there is someone there trying to deliberately hold me back or sabotage my efforts. I feel like everyone hates me or thinks that I am below every one else.
I don't know, I would say 'I'm having one of those days' but TBH most days I feel like this. I feel like I am constantly battling and having to stay on guard against various assaults and quite frankly I find it quite exhausting. I wish I could relax a bit more.
This is a ranty/venty thread. It's helped to get it out but would like some thoughts/advice too please.
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How can I stop thinking that the whole world is against me?
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IfuckingHateIkea · 22/12/2014 16:34
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