Its been 12 months since my dh retired and we had a lovely christmas last year. We were making plans to take lovely trips and weekend breaks, had plans to maybe move house, and generally share some good times. I want to say at the start of this thread that I have always loved him dearly and he is my best friend, has been for 25 years, but I don't know who he is turning into!
He ended up going back to work after a couple of months, we did agree that part time would be better but it was a full time position. So pretty much life went back to how it was before he retired, nothing new to look forward to or break the routine. And he is really not interested in doing much anyway, seems to have turned into an old and grouchy man.
He is drinking and smoking heavily, and has developed a couple of horrible habbits, either hawking up and spitting or constantly blowing stuff out of his nostrils without a hanky, both of which embarress me and turn my stomach! I've asked him to please not do it, explained how it makes me feel but he gets annoyed and says he has to, to clear his nose etc as his tubes are blocked up.
I begged him not to do it the other week as my sister was visiting, and he went mad and we ended up falling out for the morning.
He is more snappy, moody and if I mention going out to visit nice places, towns, markets etc he responds with either No I don't fancy that or No I don't want to walk around shops! Though we used to do this, and i'm not a typical go in all the shops woman either. I dread asking if he wants to do anything as i've tried to suggest us taking a little break somewhere, and his answer was no because we have had a couple of holidays and breaks this year already, so basically thats enough.
I love Christmas, always have but he is not interested at all, I love the idea of christmas markets and getting out and about. So because he does have to do his own christmas gift shopping I looked into booking us into a hotel in a big city just for one night, and it took me over a week to suggest it because I was dreading his response or reaction, and surley I shouldn't feel like this?
I've asked him if maybe he is depressed, but he said no to that, and wouldn't go to the doctors even if he was feeling really ill anyway. He is very generous with his money, buying me things that I like, giving money to family etc, but I feel in other areas that he is selfish, and becoming more so. Its difficult to get into conversation about these issues because he gets angry so easily.
I don't know who to speak to or where to turn, I feel my "friend" is changing so much and I wonder if he even loves me anymore??
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Not sure who DH is anymore, its making me sad, am I losing my best friend...
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sweetpud · 27/11/2014 12:13
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