I posted back in August when I found out that my husband had been exchanging sexually explicit messages on facebook with an old school friend.
I decided to give us a go and started going to marriage counselling.
At the end of September it then turned out that he had done it (messages on fb) with 2 other women previously, which totally shook my world, as I had been starting to process the initial shock and had seen a very small light at the end of the tunnel. It had apparently progressed over a year from increased use of porn to live web cams to the fb messaging and his therapist says that it was sex addiction.
Anyway, I have stayed with him and we are still trying, and now he has been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. This diagnosis fits him to a tee, with the exception of the abuse to other people, he has never been emotionally or physically abusive to me or anyone else, in fact he's the complete opposite, he's too nice.
He says that he thinks about killing himself regularly but would never do it, the thought of me and the dc stop him apparently. He started cutting himself but told me the next day when I asked him what his coping mechanism was and has now stopped, as far as I know.
The problem I have is this - I am still incredibly hurt, angry and confused by what he did, and can't find it in myself to be as understanding as I feel he needs me to be. I feel like my feelings have to take a back seat in order for him to deal with this diagnosis and I just don't find it fair, which I know is selfish, but I can't help it.
I still love him and if it was someone else then I could of course see why he did what he did just from looking at websites about BPD, but as it's my husband who's done this I can't help feeling that if he wanted to he could have stopped himself from doing the fb messaging.
I suppose what I'm asking is, does anyone have experience of a BPD dp/dh, and if so, can it get better?
Sorry for the long message.
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Husband diagnosed with borderline personality disorder.
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dreamingofblueskies · 29/10/2014 16:22
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