My H is clearly abusive and I can clearly see this. So why can't I just eject myself from this situation? I've just finished 10 weeks counselling via local WA I still haven't left and I'm feeling like I really have let myself and others down.
I've got divorce papers ready to go. I told him yesterday clearly that I felt we needed to end the relationship, I did frame it in a sort of 'it's not you it's me' way, that I wasn't sure of who I was or what I wanted anymore (which is clearly BS as it is him). It would just be so nice if he just decided to go himself as he's often said he would like to but I have no illusions there. I'm getting conflicting advice, I've been loathe to instigate anything because of all I've read about the most dangerous time being around separation, while others I've spoken to say (and my gut instinct agrees) to be clear and direct with him, matter-of-fact and that because he is a bully he will gain respect for me if I take control of the situation. I'm really going in circles right now.
On the other hand, I sometimes look at the situation and think I don't have it so bad... the kids (both young adults now) have done great so far, I'm just getting back into my career after a few years out, financially stable. I might break the spell if I change anything. I must be, as he tells me, a vindictive bitch.
Actually I'm cackling to myself reading that-- yeah right! He ruins everything on a daily basis, he is vicious and horrible. I'm limping along but if he were out of the picture it would be so much brighter.
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What was the point of all that counselling?
thatsnotmynamereally · 23/10/2014 07:27
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