In shock. Have just gone onto Gmail on husbands PC and there was a new account there which he has created. Lots of messages to and from women via a 'cougar' dating website and Craigslist. Sexually explicit messages and photos and some stuff about meeting up.
Background (and will try not to drip feed but very upset and confused so may do), I instigated a separation about 2 months ago but we remained living in the same house for logistical and financial reasons. Husband didn't want to separate and told me he loved me, wanted to be with me, that we should try again for the kids (two DDs aged 3 and 7). I stood firm as very unhappy and felt it was the right thing for me to do.
10 days ago I broke down, couldn't stop crying and shaking, made it into work but was immediately sent home. Saw my GP. Signed off work for 2 werks and prescribed anti-depressants which I have been on for 10 days and are working, feeling calmer and kept taking to husband about how I could see improvements and if I was unwell the separation should be put on hold for a bit as my judgement whilst depressed could well be wrong. He agreed, seemed pleased, we started to hug and kiss a bit but still in separate rooms as I have bad insomnia at the moment. Today I saw a psychiatrist who diagnosed me as severely depressed and suggested a range of therapies. I have a history of depression over the last 10 years or so. Got home, talked it all through with husband. All seemed positive, I get help and marriage will probably be ok. Husband very supportive. I apologised for putting him through all this and tried to explain how I was feeling and what depression can do to someone/how it can affect their life. He seemed to understand.
Now I find these messages. I felt too sick to read everything but it looks like the most recent one was sent yesterday. It was all about how much he would like to meet this woman and go down on her, exactly what he'd like to do etc. I think he has messaged at least six women. What the fuck do I do? He is out, I texted saying what I'be found. I am now hiding in my room (have asked him not to come to talk tonight as I just don't know what to do). He has texted saying he can explain, 'please don't get upset' and we can talk tomorrow. I feel gutted and betrayed. We have been together for 7 years and as far as I know he had always been faithful and so have I. As far as I understood we have been working on 'us' for the past 10 days and looking to the future. We even discussed booking a holiday this morning for when I am feeling better.
I would really appreciate some guidance here. Thank you.
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Help me. Just found sex/meet up messages on husband's PC.
Kracken · 01/10/2014 20:25
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