A few years ago, things were very strained with DH. I was deeply unhappy and considering divorce.
We both worked on our relationship, made a lot if effort and have have managed to pull out from. Now things are good. We have reached a balance where we don't have major outbursts. I found some happiness, from my work, the dcs, building my own social life and generally creating a network around me.
But then DH went away for a week. I thought I would miss the hard work he us doing in the house (he really has taken over a lot of the HW due to me working long days). I thought I would somehow be lonely in the evening, miss having an adult in the house.
But I haven't :(. It actually felt easy and flowing wo a hitch. There was no relief he wasn't there but I haven't felt something was missing as such either.
It feels like, when things were bad, my heart has been ripped apart, healed back but wo any love left for DH. I go care about him, I love him in the sense that I wish him to be happy and would never do anything hurtful intentionally.
I thought that, having sorted do many things, both of us making so much efforts, then we would go back to our relationship. Different but maybe better, a bit like couples who survive an affair say it's different but just as good. But it isn't.
Not sure what to do with that. Our life doesn't involve anger and resentment. I am happy and DH has never said he wasn't happy with his life. We have a good life. But surely you are suppose to miss your partner in some ways when they are away??
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PotsAndCambert · 01/10/2014 17:32
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