Hiya all.
Sorry had to take a break for MN for a bit as my ex had found me and was using mn to make my life difficult. Anyway think I am safe now, MNHQ have reactivated my account and I have namechanged for the billionth time! I am an old lag honest - penis dragons, Naice ham, penis mug, and all that.
Ok, I met a man a little while ago (may ish) I´ve known him as an acquaintance for a couple of years or so. Anyway everything was going ok, we were keeping things light, and having the odd drink together, occasional meal, kissed a quite a bit, rounded a few bases (we are both a little careful having been stung before) DTD about 10 days again, exchanged the odd soppy email, text etc. NOW I KNOW THIS IS NEW etc, but I thought things we going ok, we were having fun, enjoyed spending time with each other etc.
There are a few things that are bothering me though and I don´t know what is anything I should do, how to approach them or if I should just go well that was fun but lets move on.
- he has this phrase (I think it might be an anxiety or something), every time we are fooling about he says "I can spare you 5 minuets" when we have finished fooling about he says "well you need to go". Before anyone says it HE IS NOT MARRIED - I know his family quite well so I know I am no being fed a line. I makes me feel really awful, and to be honest although this might sound odd, it makes me feel dirty and used.
- the other day I had to do something very difficult and traumatic for me, I had popped round (a couple of days before) with a view of asking him if he would come with me just offer a little moral support. BUT, we got talking (I was trying to work up the nerve to be honest) and one of the things he really likes about me is that I am a "STRONG" women. I just felt like I couldn´t ask him - because he would judge me as being weak
- He saw me after I had been to do the difficult thing mentioned about. I was wearing something he is not used to seeing me. he said "where I you going" I replied I´ve already been - he was really off with me from this point on wards. (this was Friday). The place we were did not offer an opportunity for further conversation on the subject and to be honest I didn´t feel up to it - Had popped in to a friends to have coffee (She didn´t know where I had been) I just wanted to be round someone familiar
- Whilst we were both at said friends, my daughter came up in conversation, She has a anaphylactic allergy (he knows this) any way he picked this particular moment to decide to loudly and repeatedly say that "if she was HIS daughter HE would have her tested every year" I tried to explain that 1) she can´t, 2) she doesn't need to be, I asked if he knew what the tests were etc. etc. he just kept say "if she was MY daughter I would have her tested every year. I should mention at this point that I am a doctor so know what I am talking and DD has been tested etc. at GOSH.
I got up and said to friend I think I´ll leave now and walked out. I got in the car and started driving and ended up in floods of tears - I´m not sure if I am was over reacting or not.
- On Saturday we had a previously arranged to have coffee in town. He came, sat down crossed his arms and spoke 3 words to me if that - he seemed really hostile
On the back of all this I felt a little upset and sent him a message and said I think we need to have a chat (possibly not the best thing but it was really playing on my mind) I´ve not heard from him over the weekend - fair enough but I am supposed to be picking him up tomorrow and giving him a lift to garage to get his car - I don´t know what to do about that now?
Now just to make it clear that difficult thing I had to do relates to a very traumatic and physically damaging rape (a long time ago now but still feels like yesterday to me) I had to attend the Parole Board oral hearing. So I don´t know if I am just blowing everything out of proportion because I am still reeling from that. (HE DOEN¨T KNOW ABOUT THAT there is virtually know one that does so I can´t really pop round to a friend and have a chat about everything because it would all come tumbling out=
Anyway I know this is REALLY long, and I hope it is legible as I am really upset still. Hope some reads it.
WWYD
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