I considered name-changing for this as I'm pretty sure my DH knows my username, but it isn't as if this problem is something he isn't aware of.
I don't want to write out a ten page OP so will try and be as brief as possible and get to the essence of what is wrong.
This is NOT a post about domestic violence, btw, nobody within our household is being physically abused. There is a problem though and I cannot decide that DH changes his behaviour so am after advice on how I deal with it, as I think I must have been approaching everything the wrong way for it to have become so bad I am considering us living separate lives.
My DH is miserable.
He moans, nags, criticizes and generally gives off a negative vibe which then effects the whole household.
He does not recognize this, states he is fine with no issues.
He has always been a bit of a glass half empty kind of person but the demands of life and a family have made him more of a 'glass is cracked and chipped, half empty with dirty water' kind of person. Any conversation about the way his attitude disrupts anyone else's life is met with "This is how I am, how I've always been. A person can't change who they are"
Recently we have had 2 incidents where his outlook has culminated in an aggressive outburst.
The first was with our DS(18). He has been going through a, hopefully quite common, phase of feeling that because he is an'adult' and has his own income, he no longer needs to be bound by the rules of the house. DS is not a morning person nor am I.
DH used to leave the house early but is now leaving later. Morning used to be relatively calm. As calm as they can be when getting 5 DC ready and out of house.
DHs way of 'helping' in the morning is to constantly nag. Nobody he tells to do anything is given more than 2 minutes to do it before they are told again and again and again Last week DS snapped at being told to put all his meat on his sandwich (bought with his own money) and the 2 of them went for each other. Myself and DS3 intervened and they both went off to work angry leaving the rest of the family stressed and upset.
The second was just last night. DH collected DD (8) and I from a concert.
In the heavy traffic an arsehole taxi driver almost hit our car while attempting to bully his way into line of traffic after noticing too late that his lane was closed. We both commented that he was out of order and I took his plate number and council number to report him.
Shortly after a car literally shot out of a junction to get into lane we were in at lights. We were moving very slowly and it was clear that this person was not about to wait to be let in, he barely looked at oncoming traffic either.
DHs response was to speed up then shout and swear while slamming on brakes.
I was seething as DD was screaming in the back seat and worried that the other driver (who had windows open and was shouting at DH) would come and tell us off. She was upset by a second incident within a fortnight where she has experienced the frustrations of her dad coming out in such an unusual and aggressive manner.
I am certain these two outbursts are a reflection of a deep unhappiness (not depression) combined with his reassurance, to himself, that his misery is an innate personality trait.
He does not chat, talk, unload to anyone that I am aware of about any stress he is under. Conversations with one of his oldest friends are hour long chats on phone about football with a 2 minute how's the family? great how's yours? tagged onto the end.
He chats regularly to his DF but would never discuss the family or anything particularly negative with him.
I have suggested counselling but feel he is reluctant to do this.
I cannot live with this anymore. We have had countless conversations about how unhappy I am but I don't think he realizes just how much his behaviour is dragging me down.
I do not want to come home from work.
I am exhausted trying to get him to see my point of view.
I am tired of walking away and not intervening when our DC are being berated for something minor, while they are doing ten thousand things to try and please him.
I find it very difficult not to say 'I told you so' now that the eldest 2 DS have stopped trying (I warned about 5 years ago that if they were constantly criticized, nagged and basically told they weren't good enough they would quit trying)
I fantasize about the life of a single parent...how can that be a fantasy for anyone!!!!
Has anyone else had this in their family? If so, how did you deal with it?
How can I encourage him to see what we see, address his problems and get back the DH I had years ago?
I know I am not a perfect human being btw, who is? I am quite sure I am no picnic to live with, yet I genuinely believe that I do not have any power here to change the environment within our household.
I am at a total dead end.
Sorry that was as short as I could make it within needing to dripfeed later. I hope somebody can offer me someone some wisdom and advice?
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UnacceptableWidge · 27/09/2014 11:33
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