Hiya, just need a hand hold and to talk a while...
Moved to where I live seven years ago. For about five was friends with a neighbour. She had an alcohol problem. We used to have good fun tho, round at my place singing songs and having parties. Not great looking back but there were also a lot of day to day get togethers. I liked having a close girlfriend. We had fun. We dressed up and cooked. We spent time with her children, I took them out once. It was so nice to have a neighbour to pop round to.
Trouble was mixed in tho. We are very different people. I barely drink for a start. I also work. But we had a bad background in common. I get people who are like that, because I was too.
However my neighbour would upset me at times. Banging on the door asking for favours all the time. When I got sick of doing them and said no, she would then reject me, then come back a few weeks later. I began to feel that she was not a good quality of friend. Several times we went round this pattern. It began to not be the same when we would make up. She would say horrible things to me to deliberately hurt me and I could never understand this. She said that she was spiteful at times.
The last end came when I got a boyfriend. I wanted to stay at extra night at his and asked her to feed my cat. She didn't get back to me. My lack of trust made me suspect she was deliberately not getting back to spoil my good time. My new boyfriend said, how come you have a friend that you don't trust? The friendship ended the and she write mean things about me in Facebook. I thought about my judgment because again, I don't do things like that. It's deliberately there to hurt someone, when you post on Facebook.
It's now been about two years. She made one attempts and I didn't want to re start it so sad no, but of course I wish her well etc. as time went on I realised I missed her. I missed the random nights we'd have dancing in my flat and talking, and looking at youtubes and catching up. We used to have fun and I miss having a close friend. She was my last one.
Anyway last week I got a random email saying she thought I'd like to know that she has kicked her demons. Had a spell in hospital due to drinking and has not drunk ever since. She said she wanted me to know because I was one of the few who believed she could and would do it one day, which I did. I was delighted to hear this news. We agreed to meet up, she asked if we could as she wanted to share the journey.
We arranged my Sunday, before my holiday and actually my birthday. And she didn't get back to me on the day!!! Nothing nothing nothing, so I wrote saying was she still thinking of coming, and she hasn't even read the face book message or made contact!!! I have been had again by this woman. I am so upset. People told me not to make the arrangement but I wanted to hear what had happened and also she was dear to me. I don't care whether other people get that, because she was an alcoholic. I know that she was good to me at times and I was good to her and we spent a lot of time together. Anyway I feel like such a fool and so hurt. What changed for her? Did she say, nah that was too easy, I don't want to go back there now she agreed to meet again so easily. My boyfriend says it is how alcoholics behave. But there must have been a thought process in there. Did she want to deliberately hurt me? What do people think? I guess also a part of me likes having friends who understand what a bad childhood is like. My other girlfriends don't understand how that can change ones whole perspective on life. I like having someone who understands. I am so hurt. I thought we would meet, chat and then go back our separate ways. Is this wrong of me do you think, selfish of me and hurtful towards her?
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something2say · 20/09/2014 10:32
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