This has been festering inside for a couple of weeks and this morning I woke and just feel devastated.
A bit of history. My marriage has been sexless for ten plus years, probably averageing sex 2-3 times each year but no PIV for many years and he just can't hold an erection.
Last weekend was one of those rare intimate times, and he said he was sorry he doesn't touch me often, and then he said he felt sorry for me. And then admitted he watches porn.
Now each day since I have become more and more angry, I'm so pissed off that he pities me, I don't want to be pitied from anyone but especially the man I married. But it's the porn that has devastated me. I have posted on here before about out lack of intimacy and naively, when asked, said that he didn't watch porn. Ha, how wrong could I be.
It has changed everything about the last ten years, I loved him and actually felt sorry for him and felt if he could do something about the situation then he would, when actually he wasn't making any effort to make this work he was happy watching porn. God I'm so angry with myself.
When he initially told me I said nothing, I don't know why, but I just feel that that was the nail in the coffin for me. I'm so scared of leaving, I'm self employed and earning crap money at the minute, he has always supported us and I don't know how I'll cope. How did I get here.
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Sexless marriage, porn and pity.
Rainbowgeorge · 19/09/2014 10:51
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