I didn't really know where to post this, bereavement topic doesn't seem quite appropriate either.
My father has died and what I feel is sort of ...nothing. So I that makes me feel like a bit of a bitch. People keep telling me how close I was to him and how devastated I must be, and what a great guy he was.
He was not a bad person, I know that he loved me and he was very reliable for practical stuff. But emotionally there was something not right between us. I was never able to be in his company for very long without feeling completely drained of energy at best and distressed at worst. I'm not sure I want to write all the bad stuff down except that it's along the lines of negativity/criticism/control. I'm not even sure why I'm writing this, just that I feel sad that I don't feel more sad if that makes sense. I wish I could have had a better relationship with him but I never knew how.
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Mildly toxic dad has died.
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Swingball · 15/09/2014 10:23
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