I have been here a few times, bemoaning my OH's thoughtlessness/selfishness and it has even been suggested that I am with someone emotionally distant and it is just me, a product of my childhood, seeking love and instead needing to seek out a life and even leave my OH.
Thing is, I am not blameless and I don't believe for one minute I am in an abusive relationship.I think my OH has a mild form of aspergers. He is very different to other people, lacks friends, doesn't pick up on cues, avoids conflict for fear of upsetting people and saying the wrong thing, gets obsessed about things, has routines that are really quite annoying and has social awkwardness. My daughter finds him to be pretty odd to say the least! She is 17. But he is loving and very affectionate, he tries hard to put me first, never ever puts me down and would do anything for me. Yet I find it so hard to live with him sometimes. He can be so loving and yet so strange in things he says, without thought! It is maddening, but reading up on aspergers, it is to be unexpected. His family always knew he was different and unique but sometimes, because of all I have been through, I just wanted to be with a 'normal' guy...then I feel selfish, because he is such a lovely, caring man. I have been in many abusive relationships and he is the complete and total opposite to that, he doesn't have a bad bone in his body. But yesterday, I was at the police station reporting a historic rape. It was very difficult for me but OH just wanted to get on with the day as normal. I just wanted comfort and support and tried to seek that from him, which he did give, but felt awkward a little. We went out for a meal, and the food we had triggered IBS with me (undercooked omelette!) and at home, I felt unwell, and run down. I fell asleep only to wake up to find him watching some documentary on Kate Bush, rather than suggesting we go to bed and rest. He is obsessed with Kate Bush and other bands and even this gets to me, when perhaps it shouldn't. But it just seems to indicate a certain thoughtlessness. Perhaps I am asking too much of my OH and I certainly over react and am very sensitive, due to all I have been through. Today I have to do a video at a rape centre and he just spoke about going to a car show before I do it! It isn't that he doesn't care/love me, just that bloody thoughtlessness, and it brings out the worse in me...I turn into an over-reactive, negative nag! I have vast experience of abusive men, and he is not one of them but how do you remain positive and loving in the light of this?
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goldsilver · 31/08/2014 08:22
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