Please be gentle, am feeling very raw.
Been with DH for 12 years and married for 10. 3 kids under 4, I'm a SAHM. Nice lifestyle, no money worries. Absolutely crap sex life. He never (and I mean never) initiates it. For him it's a chore he'd rather not bother with. We have sex maybe 4 times a year, always when I've thrown a fit about it. We sleep separately, he smokes and snores.
I've ignored my sexuality for so long I'd started to believe it doesn't matter. But then something happened and I've realised it does.
DH says for him sex is a really emotional intimate thing whereas my approach is much more recreational. Somehow I just don't seem to do it for him and then he loses his erection and gets angry, usually at me. He thinks he knows how frustrated I am but he's no idea how much this is making me climb the walls.
I decided to do everything I could to try and make it right but he couldn't get hard. He really would rather just not bother.
He came in last night and said he'd taken a Viagra (he bought some off the internet at my insistence) and expected me to be thrilled and I pointed out that I'd rather not have sex with someone who thinks they're doing me a favour by shaggjng me.
He's been to the doc about it (after the last time I insisted) and the doc wouldn't prescribe anything as he told her that he didn't have any erection/performance issues when he was on his own.
I tearfully told him last night that I couldn't go on like this, and I didn't know how to fix it or if it could be fixed even. He tells me he loves me, we both adore the children and if we could get this sorted I think we would be fine.
This has gone on for so long, years and years even before we had the kids, so it's not that. I don't want to sound big headed but I'm in good shape and I don't think it's as simple as a straight attractiveness thing.
I really want this to work, but honestly can it?
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Can this ever get better?
ArethaFranklinstights · 15/08/2014 09:29
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