I've namechanged as I'm on here all the time and changed the ages of DC as I know my good friends go on mumsnet and I feel very paranoid I'm going to get found out.
I'm a stay at home mom with DC who I will say they are around the 8yo and 5yo region. DH is away a lot with work but when he is home, he helps with looking after DC as well as the cooking and cleaning.
My DC are THOSE kids, the ones who are lively, naughty and loud. The ones that other parents roll their eyes at and thank the skies they are not theirs, this is paranoid I know and I feel ashamed to say it. All I've done every evening since they broke up from school last week is scold them (do not mean smacking) and criticise them as they've been rude and don't listen to me, squabble, don't go to sleep and think it's funny when I break down crying. I've tried the praise, reward, etc but they revert to type and cause me distress. I actually thought I could quite frankly put them up for adoption .
Tonight DH is back and during bath time he forgot to wash the conditioner out of DD hair. When I brought it up he raged at me and stormed downstairs like a petulant child. Few minutes later he came back up as youngest was crying for him and despite my insistence that I would once again deal with DC (as it always ends in tears with him around) he insisted he put youngest to bed. Whilst I was reading other DD a bedtime story, he rounded on me again that I need to get my act together and stop relying on him. This caused me to breakdown crying again.
The reason I feel I'm going mad is because I don't feel I have relied on him. I have been doing everything with regards to the house and family whilst he supports the house as breadwinner (his words). I'm worn out from the DC behaviour and what I feel is his unreasonable behaviour. We have so much on at weekends with weddings, birthdays and family get togethers I don't feel I have any time to think until very late at night like now.
This feels like a 'first world' problem, I'm not sure what advice I'm looking for, I think I just needed to vent as my head is crammed with so much sadness, stress and unhappiness. Life is shit for me at the moment.
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I think I'm going mad..
Awhuni · 31/07/2014 23:24
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