Things have been rocky for a while between myself and dh (together 15 years married 9). We have regular flare ups and instead of walking away we verbally abuse each other. We have made the decision to split on a number of occasions but I have always relented and tried to fix things by setting up counselling, setting ground rules for discussion, getting him to agree to walk away when he is feeling angry etc... but nothing has worked so I am all out of hope and tbh that was what was keeping the relationship going, hope that it would get better, that we could change, that if we loved each other then it couldnt be that hard to change.
Anyway we have agreed to split (although if he honestly came back to me and said that he was willing to take responsibility for his behavior and actions then I would give it another go but he has not done so to date)
We are due to go away on a 3 week holiday next week. We are bringing our 2 children with us and my sd18 is coming over for the middle week. We will be staying with a relative of mine for one week and the place we are staying in belongs to a relative of mine.
I would struggle going on my own with the kids for 3 weeks as I am not as experienced driving on European roads as he would be. I would have to collect sd from an airport 1.5 hours away and would be anxious doing that drive. I would also find it difficult managing our children for 3 weeks out of their environment and I know they would be missing him if he didnt go. They are 6 and 5.
However, I am not looking forward to going on the holiday together as it feels like a pretence if we are splitting up and also I am anxious about a flare up and how it will spoil the holiday for all of us if something does kick of which it inevitablly will.
Anyone either cancelled or gone on holiday in a similar situation and in hindsight what would you advise?
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What about the holiday
rockandaghardplace · 21/07/2014 11:39
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