I've noticed that I write these posts approximately every three months.
At the risk of boring everyone, and also on the basis that I don't know how to link, I'll provide a quick background.
A year ago I found porn in the Google search history. This was purely accidental on my part and unexpected. We talked a lot about it, I made clear that its the secrets and lies that hurt the most, however I'm not madly keen on being married to a misogynist. We moved on bought a new house etc. Things were becoming more normal, not totally but getting there.
Anyway come March he is crying, told me all sorts of things I.e. he habitually masturbated, who to, when, told me he held hands and hugged other women on nights out.
After that I got the I don't know if I love you, don't feel close to you etc...you get the gist! Anyway he was signed off work for three months with depression and has had counselling and CBT for this and his intrusive thoughts.
This morning he is due back at work, basically he told me that he feels empty inside and allergic to me??!
I have totally had enough, told him that we were finished cos I'm done with being miserable, I don't need him for that! I said all sorts of things but I made it clear that I was finished and that I want out.
He came down stairs later and wanted to hug and kiss me. I asked if he was going back to his mum's. ..no why would I I'll be back here later...as if nothing has happened.
I am devastated but I can't carry on like this. Please tell me I'm not being unreasonable. He has taken my feelings and choked the life right out of them. I don't know how I feel anymore. My anxiety is immense to the point where my arms shake very badly. I can't go back to the crying I've just had 2 months off work because of the stress caused by this! !!
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Three months on...even worse than before.
gildedcage · 21/07/2014 07:54
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