Feeling really bitter towards DH - as some of you know we never have sex - his chouce. He's not interested and/or can't. We have one DS (5) conceived through IVF. I am now 42. Started another cvcle of IVF on Friday and went for an ultrasound this morning to be told that only one follicle developed so not worth proceeding this time. Doc says that due to having 3 days of the stimulating hormone we should get a better result next month.
Obv I am disappointed. Although I was realistic about the changes of it working I didn't expect it to fail this early.
And I blame DH. I wanted to try again 4 years ago but he didn't. I almost left him over it at one point but we went for counselling and I stayed. Of course nothing changed really and then we moved countries so everything was put on hold anyway. Then every time I brought up the subject I got "the look". The one where it is patently obvious that he doesn't want the discussion. Finally in May I said this is it, it's happening. For various reasons we couldn;t do a cycle till now. The doctor kept reassuring me that although I am 42 my hormone levels were very good. Obv not.
So - here i am. 42 with one fab DS. No sex life. No affection unless I initiate it. And I always wanted more children. I feel he has robbed me of my best child-bearing years (not to mention my sexual peak!).
He phone a while ago to see how I am and is trying to be positive. I just want to kill him.
Other than all this he is a great Dad, makes me laugh (sometimes), cooks, shops etc.
I should have bloody left years ago.
Sorry for rant. Can't do in RL as too emotional right now. Should be off out at nice girly lunch now too.
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Really bitter towards DH
BudaBabe · 11/09/2006 13:18
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