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In lust with another man

(44 Posts)
PocketFullOfDreams Fri 11-Apr-14 10:26:23

Ok, name changed for this.

I don't know what's wrong with me. I have 2 children to my partner of 5 years. We haven't had the best relationship but for the last couple of years things have been going great. I'll be honest, for the first 3 years my partner treated me like shit, but i stuck around because at the time i was absolutely besotted with him, and all i wanted was for him to love me.

Fast forward to now, my partner would do anything to make me happy. He worships the ground i walk on and we are very happy. I have everything i wanted. We are even talking about marriage.

So why am i totally obsessed with somebody else?? This other guy is ALL i think about. I cant stop fantasizing about him. I want him.

The thing is, i know he wants me too, he's told me he does.

Nothing has ever happened. We don't have each others phone numbers or anything like that. And i would NEVER cheat on my partner. But the temptation is there, getting stronger. But i know i wouldn't because i have too much to lose and i would never want to hurt my partner.

What is wrong with me? sad

PocketFullOfDreams Fri 11-Apr-14 10:27:46

Don't even know why I'm posting tbh, think i just needed to write it down and tell somebody

Bitrustyandbusty Fri 11-Apr-14 10:56:21

You want what you can't have? Thrill of the chase, maybe? It seems a bit like a pattern, sorry.

Stop engaging with this other man, give him no opportunity to tell you he wants you, or for you to tell him that. That's just blowing on the spark. Unless you want to leave your partner, now you've got him...

Good luck!

PocketFullOfDreams Fri 11-Apr-14 11:01:05

I don't even see this other man often, barely even know him to be honest, he's a friend of a friend. We only see each other in passing every now and again, but he once told me (when drunk) that he was jealous of my partner, and that if i was single he would want to be with me.

PocketFullOfDreams Fri 11-Apr-14 11:02:52

I'm so attracted to him sad

Fairenuff Fri 11-Apr-14 11:16:26

for the first 3 years my partner treated me like shit, but i stuck around because at the time i was absolutely besotted with him

It sounds like a pattern repeating itself. Maybe you should go to counselling to see if you can find out why?

PocketFullOfDreams Fri 11-Apr-14 11:22:26

I think ive always been a bit like this, getting besotted with people for a while. My partner is the only person who's managed to actually keep me interested

Allofaflumble Fri 11-Apr-14 13:04:54

"Would want to be with me" in reality 99.9% means have sex with you and then move along.

I had an overwhelming attraction once to a builder who came to our house, felt a real zing about him, but that was it - I knew it was an insane thing that happens occasionally.

Do not act on this.

PocketFullOfDreams Fri 11-Apr-14 13:45:13

I have no intention of acting on it. But cant stop thinking about him, I'm properly obsessed, and every time i see him i get butterflies, and normally if somebody else was in this situation id be asking if there was something missing in their relationship but there is nothing missing in mine.

MadeMan Fri 11-Apr-14 17:19:23

"...but he once told me (when drunk) that he was jealous of my partner, and that if i was single he would want to be with me."

I'll bet this has had a big impact on making you feel the way you do.

The guy was drunk. Guys say everything and anything when they're drunk and he probably wouldn't follow through with the idea anyway; at least not in any meaningful or worthwhile sense.

UtterFool Fri 11-Apr-14 17:26:00

Oh no. I thought I had it bad so can only sympathise with your situation.

I'm not sure I'm fit to give any advice at all, as you know, so just wish you all the best and hope you find some closure on this soon.

UtterFool Fri 11-Apr-14 17:28:03

Just to add though. I think your situation is worse as you know he's into you. For me, my crush has no idea and never will. I can see how much more difficult it is knowing that extra bit of information.

Monetbyhimself Fri 11-Apr-14 17:31:07

The grass is normally greener on the other side because it's fertilised with bullshit.

PocketFullOfDreams Fri 11-Apr-14 17:38:01

Yes i hope you find some closure on your situation too utterfool its hard isn't it? You feel like you are already cheating sad

But yes, he's made it clear (not just when drunk btw) that he's very attracted to me also, which, like utterfool says, makes it even more difficult. I know that if i say the word something would happen between us

PocketFullOfDreams Fri 11-Apr-14 17:39:16

I know Monet i even use that quote myself, which is why I'm puzzled as to wtf is wrong with me.

MadeMan Fri 11-Apr-14 17:50:50

"But yes, he's made it clear (not just when drunk btw) that he's very attracted to me also..."

If he's said it sober then it's a bit unfair of him really, almost as if he expects that you definitely will have an affair with him.

UtterFool Fri 11-Apr-14 18:43:32

I agree with mademan. I mean, what is someone, who has a partner, supposed to do with that sort of information? It sounds to me he's looking for an affair or to split up a relationship.

I'm assuming he knows your with someone though OP?

PocketFullOfDreams

I know what you mean. It does feel like you're cheating already as your mind is on someone else. Can you avoid this guy in work?

PocketFullOfDreams Fri 11-Apr-14 19:08:43

Yes we don't work together, he's a friend of a friend. He knows i have a partner, he's seen me with him. I don't think he knew at first, when he first made a comment, then he saw us together and it was after that he said he was jealous of him, that my partner is a lucky man etc

Ilovemydogandmydoglovesme Sat 12-Apr-14 00:43:09

I once had a guy at work declare his undying love for me. It went from great mates to him telling me to leave dp for him and what he would do for me. Whilst it was tempting, as he was all romance and flowers and dp, well, wasn't, it just wasn't the love that I had for dp. I told dp all about it. I was hoping to get a reaction and an improvement in his behaviour. I thought him knowing that another man wanted me might buck his ideas up a bit. I don't know if it ever really worked bit it made me appreciate what I'd got.

MummyBeerest Sat 12-Apr-14 00:58:07

It's always nice to be told you're attractive by someone you also find attractive. It's even normal to fantasize (I think, anyway) But lust is just that. ..lust. Fleeting, however fun it may be.

A long-term relationship has ups and downs. It'd pprobably be the same with this guy as it is with your DP now. Not all moonlight and roses and all.

Though it does sound like there may be underlying issues with your DP? Forgive me if I'm wrong.

beaglesaresweet Sat 12-Apr-14 01:26:17

yep, you are attracted to unavailable men, very simple. You partner was that to start with (emotionally), and you were chasing - now you 'have' him.

EBearhug Sat 12-Apr-14 01:29:56

It's nice to be told you're attractive, especially when it's reciprocal. And fantasizing is normal and can quite cheer the day up.

Just don't ruin a good fantasy by trying to make it reality.

arsenaltilidie Sat 12-Apr-14 07:15:44

The old treat them mean to keep em keen.
Another woman who loves drama hmm

PocketFullOfDreams Sat 12-Apr-14 08:45:58

I don't love drama. Who am i treating mean?

PocketFullOfDreams Sat 12-Apr-14 09:21:10

Just to be clear, this other man has absolutely no idea that i fancy him. The only people who actually know are one of my closest friends and people on Mumsnet.

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