My two closest friends are pregnant and while they think I am over the moon for them its just a big charade and its killing me.
We have been trying for a baby since Sept, in which time ive had 2 miscarriages, one at 5 weeks , and another one 6 weeks, 6 months apart. Now I feel like I want a baby more than ever.
I aleady have one 2 1/2 yr old , and my best friend Bea has a child the same age , we were pregnant together and it was fab.She is pregnant again after trying once, and has been making comments like 'hurry up I dont want to do this by myself'. This is all lighthearted but....
Since having my child, because its filled me with such happiness i was always saying to my other friend jay, that sjhe should have one. Everytime she had something to tell me I'd always jump in and say 'youre pregnant!!!' and we would laugh and I would be disappointed. Anyway, she has fell pregnant also on the first attempt, and because she knew Id be so pleased she told me at 5 weeks, and because Im one of the few she has told, we have spoken a lot and i have heard lots of things about her pregnancy. And shes always so excited on the phone because she thinks im so excited!!!
I know I should be over the moon for my friends.. i love them both so much and know how much happiness being a mum brings but sometimes I just want to say 'shut up shut up shut up' I wont tell them about my miscarriages, especailly not jay, because she is only 9 weeks and its just not something you want to hear when your pregnant is it?
Sorry to whine on, just I feel that everyone I know is having babies and i have to plaster this smile on when i feel the oppostite. All i want is to be pregnant myself. I am such a bad friend
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I cant be happy for my friend and feel such a cow
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swift1 · 14/08/2006 20:21
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