I just need to vent!!!
I had DS2 in march. DS1 had just turned one and I was feeling like shit.
SO- i went on a diet, a planned to run 5k get a better body than pre pregnancy.
I worked hard & it paid off.
I ran 5k and ran it well.
During all of this me and DH were fighting, on the rocks, he was paranoid that id cheat/had cheated.
One day my 'bestfriend' came round for a cuppa with her DS, chit chatting away and she starts talking about a night out we had had a couple of months before, dont know where she is going with it but i listen politely as my mother taught me, shes talking alot about DH, shes talking about when she came to ours to wait for a lift and i went to bed because my run was the next day, shes telling me about sitting on the sofa with me DH and watching a movie...
I still didnt know what the fuck she was getting at!!
AM I FUCKING BRAINDEAD, im just sitting nodding along, bile rising in my throat.
HE CHEATED ON ME WHILE I WAS IN BED UPSTAIRS!!!
SERIOUSLY, WTF.
Apparently I hadnt been paying him attention and I was busy with the kids and he felt left out.
SHE sat beside me at my wedding, i arranged her baby shower, she continued to chat away to me after this happend about the kids and asking advice.
Its been two months since i found out, I put all the weight back on, if hes going to cheat when im the skinniest ive been since i was 14 then why bother.
Im now happy in my own body.
We have been trying to work it out for the kids, I just dont know if thats working any more, everyday theres a fight, everyday theres a big arugment, havnt had sex in a good while.
The only thing stopping me going is im a SATM whith no saving, NO idea about help with getting my own place or benefits to get me out on my own.
I have a post in divorce/seperation but i needed to rant the full story.
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killpeppa · 24/10/2013 12:43
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