My dh walked out on me and our 2 year old DD.We'd been trying for a second baby which seemingly slipped his mind whilst he'd been with 'girl from work' . I found out I was pregnant a week after he left which I stupidly thought would bring him back.
I am so glad I found mumsnet 
and a group of lovely strong ladies to get me through that first year. Any Fucker, Countingtonten and a lovely lovely poster who is no longer on here (Whenwillifeelnormal). Many many dark nights of despair, fear, disbelief and a huge sense of injustice at what had happened and the fact that the person who I thought I would grow old with had stolen our future to be with someone else. Anyway point being is that it was horrific, certainly for the first year ( lots of to-ing and fro-ing on his part..I love you..then leaving again..I put up with way too much) .but for em anyone going through this..please please follow the advice on here from the lovely people on here who have been through the same. I let things drag on far tooling and believed the unbelievable for far too long as I desperately wanted him back (mainly fear of the future alone I now realise not love ) It took almost 2 years at the hands of his indecision . for me to be the one that finally said no. Anyway fast forward from those dark times and I now look on that day as the best thing he ever did . I saw a therapist and came to terms with some v long standing issues that had almost certainly played a part in my marriage breakdown. I wrote and wrote and wrote everything down that I was feeling every night and it
really helped. Now I see I wasn't actually that happy in my marriage after all which came as a slow and painful realisation over time. 4 years on and my DDs are 3 and 6 and I am so thankful for every day. For those of you going through it please don't doubt yourself and don't stay with
anyone out of fear of the future alone . It's painful and messy but that is better than than being with someone who doesn't treat you with the respect you deserve. I wish I had heeded more of
the advice on here at the time but I was so devastated I just wanted things back the way they were.
We are so strong as a little family unit and very happy. Of course it's hard but it's a very uncomplicated happy household with no tension, resentment or arguments. The DC's have a good relationship with him. I am ok with him ..I even walked his dog last week as a favour . I would never have thought a few years ago I would be doing that!
I have met someone else but that's just the icing on the cake. I had got happy by the time he came along which I now realise is more important than anything or anyone else.
Anyway bit of a ramble . I just wanted to say I am so thankful for mumsnet and all it's lovely wise women ( and men) and to all those going through it. Please don't think you can't do it because you can . Don't compromise and have faith in the future.
Sorry for typos. Phone! Grrr
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Seth · 16/10/2013 23:54
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How lovely to read your post, your life has really turned around. I hope your post gives hope to other people 
Thankyou for your lovely messages. I think the biggest thing that held me back from getting stronger more quickly ( in case there is anyone reading this who is in the situation I was back then) is a lack of self esteem, and as a result of that I put more faith in him that I should have and have him too many chances. 
I didn't know about 'the script' at the time and he would always wait til the point I seemed to be getting stronger and disengaging from him and his life then profess his undying love for me.I desperately wanted him back (because of low self esteem , being pregnant , wanting the 'perfect' family back together, fear of the future) so I believed him . He always put on a convincing show and I think to this day he believed that's what he wanted at the time. I never let him move back in as I wanted to keep it to talking, dates, counselling etc.
Sure enough after a couple of months every time he'd be less 'transparent' about his life , would contact me less and there was generally less of everything.
I look back now and wonder why I allowed this to happen but it's hard when the person you have always loved is painting a soft focus picture of a house by the sea, a dog and happily ever after!
I am not saying that it can't work after an affair or separation but don't let yourself be fobbed off. I remember posting on here saying 'DH is saying that he wants us to get back together but he's not doing x y z and he seems to be pulling away -do you think he really wants this?' The very fact that I had to post that should have said it all but I wanted to believe him.
It should be ringing loud and clear if the other person's heart is in it. They should be 100 % transparent about what happened, not blame you and prepared to do whatever it takes to get you back.
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