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Anyone here? Just had argument with DH :((43 Posts)
I really don't know if I'm blowing things out of proportion here and just need a friendly ear.
Bit of background. IMO DH has (or has had) anger issues (never physical but tends to react to stressful incidents rarely by getting cross and letting ff steam as his way of coping. He is completely fine afterwards but it upsets me and he thinks it's my issue that I get upset).
He finally admitted he had a problem (possibly because we debated it alot on my insistence (he wants to put his head in the sand about it). He bought an anger management book, did some exercises and seemed to have different strategies to help me.
Just now we were both in the kitchen. He couldn't find a piece of paper I had tidied away earlier, when I told him where I had put it I could feel him getting annoyed I had moved it when he needed (didn't say anything, just a vibe) and as he shut the tupperware (gosh this sounds pathetic) he did it in a forceful way like he was irritated. So I questioned him about it and he spoke in an aggressive tone to me about how he needed it which is why he left it out and it was important. Me replying if it was so important why was it under bits and pieces of junk. I could tell he was angry about it, he had a cross look and he started huffing a bit. He then started telling me I was provoking him and he wasn't angry until I started talking and going on and on (speaking in aggressive tone) and that he was fine but he knew that I'd be upset by our conversation so why do I always go on about things (I try to talk about things/make DH realise the effect his behaviour has on me and DH isn't interested). We ended out having a full on row. Him not taking me seriously at all and saying he's fine thank you very much he's got it out of his system but it's all my fault that I get upset by this and I have the issue and I should just leave it alone and everyone would be fine. Me then trying to explain that his behaviour has an effect on me and if I'm not important enough to him that he's not bothered that his behaviour upsets me to the point of wanting to do something about it then something is wrong.
We left it at that. He seems not bothered at all that I'm upset. He sees it as all being my issue.
A side issue but one I've been thinking alot about recently. His DM was abused as a child, she has a needy personality and FIL seems from what I gather to have a temper and anger on him. I think DH is the same in this respect as FIL. MIL just accepts this and so I think DH has learnt this behaviour is normal so me challenging it is difficult as he doesn't see there as being an issue and it's very hard to make him realise IMO there is. But that's by the by.
Anyway, I realise this reinactment of our argument is very dull reading to anyone out there, so if you did read it. I am questioning whether to post it but I think it useful to have an outside perspective on this (and bear in mind you don't get DHs side and I am one hormonal and tearful lady so maybe I'm just making a big thing of nothing, but it helps to get a bit of perspective).
This issue comes up in our relationship every few months
Sounds like he's being a bit of a nob. But maybe if he posted you'd come off as the one in the wrong.
It's hard to know from what you've said if its just a normal grumpy couple thing or something that really needs to be addressed.
If its really getting you down could you suggest relate to get a 3rd party perspective.
He should understand that how he interreacts with you ( and others ) colours the relationship. Stresses are big indicators of the health of a relationship. Everyone can say how difficult or stressful they are finding a situation and ask for help to deal with it. We all are entitled to courtesy at a minimum level and some respect.
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AFish I have suggested counselling before. He was and dismissive.
That's exaclty it cail it's the fact he doesn't care that he's made me upset/that I'm alone and crying as he's OK now thank you as he's got it out of his system. Maybe I need to change how I deal with it...but on the same token I don't think I should accept someone being rude to me like that as the norm. It needs compromise but I'm the only one willing.
It infuriates me that we have both now gone to bed (separate rooms, long story!) and he's happy to leave me here upset and in the morning will eye roll if I mention it as to him it's all done dusted and over and I'm the one making the fuss. How can I be all normal with him in the morning when he's left me crying at night and forgotten all about it.
It sounds from your description that this argument escalated at the point where you asked him why he'd shut the tupperware in an irritable way. At that point you both returned to an underlying cause of conflict and tried to debate it when you were angry and/or defensive.
I'm not saying that to condone either what he said or what it indicates about his feelings about you. But if this had been raised at a time when he was not already angry or stressed, would the outcome have been the same, or would he have been willing to discuss it (somewhat)? (My feeling is that he would have gone on the defensive as soon as the topic was raised, even if he was not already irritated, but it's not clear from your post).
Why did he not employ one of his anger management strategies in this situation? He seemed to be saying (whilst angry) that he didn't need to - because he wasn't angry? Or was justifiably angry which 'doesn't count'?
He appears to be minimising your feelings - possibly for the reasons you describe, where he has learnt that the less angry partner should be the appeaser, but it doesn't really matter why he does it, it's wrong that he refuses to acknowledge the validity of your feelings.
That said, it sounds like you could maybe both do more to maintain calm without it having to be you constantly biting your tongue or walking on eggshells. What would have happened if you'd just refused to engage when he'd shut the tupperware irritably?
It is not right for him to blame you for his anger issues. The books are not sinking in if he isn't owning his reactions.
That said, my DH sounds similar, but we have different coping strategies so things rarely blow up.
For example, I rarely if ever react when he's fuming. He will
now that he's grown up always apologise later for overreacting and/or taking it out in the wrong direction. His fury blows over quickly with nothing to react against. And when he apologises I accept it and say little more than "yes, that was a bit much" and don't go on about it or use it as leverage.
He gets cross if he can't find things, so we are making sure that everything has a place it can live, including "to do" paperwork, shoes, cufflinks, keys, wallets, etc. This also makes my life easier and is a good idea in general.
These don't address the underlying anger response problem, but do reduce any chance of my being to blame and do reduce obvious flashpoints. It also means he uses my strategies in other situations (eg if I am being irrational/hormonal he gives me space to do so without mirroring my outburst, and he tries to Put Things Away Where They Live, but also using the strategies in other situations in life such as work) to reduce his own anger and avoid his response to it.
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Tribpot OK, where to start. I often ignore this behaviour of his where he gets annoyed/speaks a bit aggresively/I can feel the anger. Sometimes I just get frustrated that I don't think it's fair or right to behave like that to another person so I bring it up with DH, either by asking him not to speak to me aggressively (or whatever) as I find it upsetting or by (I admit it) behaving in a way I know provokes it but I don't know what else to do and I desperately don't want him to be angry and want him to realise it's not acceptable (tbh when he's in a mood if I don't ignore it and mention/do anything to make him think I'm aware he's in a mood it gets worse and I get blamed for making it worse)
When I try to talk about it when he's calm he refuses. If he will talk about it it's usually that it's my issue as I react badly to it and I should leave him alone. I think he did employ one of his strategies after his snapped the tupperware as I was aware of him doing a deep breath, but I'm not sure if that was to try to calm down or because I was making him cross (apparently) so it was his way of telling me so. Previously he may have walked out of the room gone and kicked/punched something when he got angry so in a way this is better (and again, should he have done that and I have got upset/scared by it it was always put that this was my issue for getting upset and he's ok now).
It always ends that he says he's fine he's got it out of his system but he knows that I'm going to go away and cry and get upset but he doesn't care enough to 1) want to change this 2) come and check I'm OK after the event
Can you identify why it upsets you so much?
Are you afraid? unhappy? frustrated? ignored?
horry that's interesting you see DH doesn't really apologise or think he does anything wrong in this type of situ. I think I am quite sensitive and maybe pick up on things alot but I could say I'm sensitive in the same way he says I'm angry
cola his anger issues are relatively rare but I have known him have to walk away from one of my family members as he got so annoyed. He's not very sociable though and we only really see family together.
I wonder if you hadn't drawn attention to it, if his annoyance might have blown over without discussion. Have you got to the point where you are watching out for it and waiting to be irritated by it?
This is not a criticism of you btw as can see there's a bigger back story, just a comment on this particular incident
IMO he no longer respects your feelings and he sounds rather self centered. He needs to be made aware that this is upsetting you and he needs to apply a mechanism to release his anger appropriately and away from you. Would be do the same in the presence of his boss? No. So why should be with you? I suggest you to present our responses to him and have him read them.
horry it upsets me because i am afraid, I feel he's out of control. I also feel like I don't deserve to be spoken to/treated like that and it's infuriating he can't understand or see that. I don't like arguments/confrontation/aggression in general.The first few times he lost his temper that I knew him (not anything to do with me) I locked myself in the bathroom and sobbed for ages as I'm just not used to this behaviour or finding it normal. I find it frustrating that he won't talk about it and can't engage in his emotions or have any empathy to see my point of view. I hope I don't sound to selfish there as it's very me me me
cloud he does this a fair bit and I ignore it. Sometimes I just feel like 'no, I'm not being spoken to like that it's not on' and I'll challenge him. Sometimes he takes it (but thinks I'm making a deal of nothing) and sometimes it makes him worse)
cookie he doesn't have a boss, he's self employed!
I don't want this all to come across as me being perfect though, we must both be at fault...
off to bed to try to sleep, will catch up in the morning
Being angry, having a short fuse etc is often a big marker for mild to moderate depression. I bet prosac or something would solve this problem over night.
You're right, you don't deserve to be spoken to like that, and you shouldn't be afraid in your relationship.
If he doesn't apologise then he thinks you do deserve to be spoken to like that, and he doesn't care that you are unhappy or afraid. This is bad.
You've said that he will never tall to you about it calmly. Do you think he would read an email or letter if you set out briefly how his actions affect you?
Something along the lines of:
I hate it when we argue and when you are angry. I feel threatened and frightened and alone.
I want us to speak kindly and respectfully to one another. If we can't even do that then I am worried our marriage is over.
Cross posted but agree about depression or anxiety.
To be honest, I can't think of anything more irritating than a person going on and on about it when I am getting slightly annoyed at something (like not finding something I left somewhere). Reading about your incident with the piece of paper and the tupperware, it just sounds to me like you were making a mountain out of a molehill and he would have been fine if you had just told him where the piece of paper was, and ignore whether or not he was "closing the tupperware lid in a forceful way".
About "not engaging in his emotions", there are very, very few guys who are happy "engaging with their emotions". Sorry, but reading your posts does not give me the impression that he is "out of control" or anything such, just that perhaps he has a way of reacting to things that you don't like, and as a result you keep nagging at him about it, and it makes him cross in the end. To be honest, I would behave the same way if I had someone over-analysing every movement I make, or the way I shut a lid.
Agree with aur a bit also if the example you gave is typical.
As an isolated incident the OP reads a little like you were picking for a fight. You knew he was frustrated and trying to keep his negative emotions in check and yet you pushed him into a confrontation about a very minor issue. Why?
However there is a bigger picture. Not dealing with his impact on your well being is not very mature. Even if he disagrees with how you react to his outbursts an apology and cuddle once he has calmed down is not a lot to ask.
My DH is similar in some ways. Has random outbursts (maybe 4 times a year) of verbal anger that often leave me in tears. It is not necessarily directed at me but I find I shocking and distressing. It is quite immature. Comments such as "i'll just leave then". But it never lasts very long and he forgets it within an hour. He hates my tears and always comes to apologise but the whole thing affects me for longer than him!
Well, the reason he is nice and calm afterwards is that he has discharged all his emotions and you are now carrying them.
So your task is to learn to NOT take those on - good luck with that!
It's hard to tell from your description whether his anger is out of proportion or out of control, but it struck me that there is a big difference between being aggressive towards someone and just being angry. It seems as if you don't allow him to be angry. If I can't find something it drives me crazy too, and I might slam something down in an angry way. I wouldn't take it out on my partner, though. Getting angry sometimes is a normal part of being human - do you ever get angry? How do you show it?
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