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Am I doing the right thing breaking up with him?(52 Posts)
MN won't let me name change but know some of you will remember other posts so brief history.
I flip flap between sleeping with dd's dad, wishing I was with ds's dad and dating. Have been sleeping with dd's dad since November, had a wobble about ds dad which resulted in a thread in AIBU that gave me loads of good advice.
DD's dad is really really irresponsible, is always the victim and nothing is ever his fault. He does try but is quite feckless there is always something going on like he's in court today because he forgot to tell the DVLA when he sold his van. He lost his job, started another one moved to london moved back to Bristol and has been staying with me since January. He is not staying with me now.
We seem to have got into a pattern of being really really lovey dovey and hugging all night, chatting all night, cooking shopping and take aways, movies, drink ups, cinema, family stuff like bike rides and birthday parties and meals. Then little niggles he shouts at me I shout at him, then bigger arguments then his stuff goes to his mums. 2/3 days later he's all apologetic I'm missing him and we get back together all lovey dovey again. When it is all nice I have never been happier it's so lovely to feel cared about and loved.
Main problems are the kids, he thinks they are spoilt, honestly 100% I don't have brats he thinks they are spoilt because you might have to tell them to tidy up their toys every day and I pick up after them to much. I don't but thats how he sees it. It also comes across that when dc are at my mums or nans we're really good but when they're about he gets jealous almost of the attention they get. He doesn't take no responsibility with them now apart from telling them to tidy up. I also get really upset I feel he doesn't include dd like the rest although he twists it and says dd see's him more and has more then the rest.
A few comments he has made have really upset me, he said the dd we have together is our princess but his youngest dd is his queen. He also says his second eldest ds is spoilt and doesn't like seeing him, but when you pick him up on things he twists it all round.
He filmed us having sex, I did post about it I know it's a red flag I know he's a dick but after we argued about it and he left I still took him back. He also is selfish with regards to that and will stick it in while I'm asleep ect ect. Another thing we have argued about.
He cannot take any form of criticism and takes anything I say to heart, when I explained the dc complaining to me he's to bossy he took it to a whole other level and said he's refusing to tell them anything again.
He is now apparently new best friends with his ex wife, I have no problem with them being vague friends or him going round there but now this best friend thing (last few weeks he's told me this) is to much for me. I might sound possessive jealous ect but I don't want to be with someone who is best friends with their ex.
He has 6 dc including our dd and had a phone call from the csa a few days ago with a woman saying her 2 yr old ds is his. He's saying he doesn't want nothing to do with it as he don't believe it's his, she was married and put the child in her husbands name so in his eyes he thinks it should only be down to her to sort dna test out. (what a dick) I also get really upset I feel he doesn't include dd like the rest although he twists it and says dd see's him more and has more then the rest but he doesn't take dd round his mums like the rest she's seen his mum twice in the last 18months and one of those times was her sisters birthday party.
He keeps managing my expectations if that makes sense, whenever I get to happy and to comfortable and ask to much of him he then starts talking about how he won't get married again and yes we're in a relationship but with no ties. But whenever we argue and split up to get back with me he paints our future together saying we are properly together and of course he wants to get married and that but not yet.
My dm thinks he's started to see someone else, I'm not quite sure whether he is or isn't but a few suspect things have happened.
I say all this and am obviously not happy with him but I think if I give more and am more patient it will all work out, I know he will never leave me for good but it's all his terms. We have properly split up I have told him I really don't want to be with him anymore but I have this thing in my head saying I'm making the wrong decision by splitting up. Maybe it is me, he keeps saying I'm pushing him away with the arguments all the time but then I think well why are we arguing in the first place unless there was something to argue about!
If you have read my epic post thank you, any advice will be really appreciated.
He sounds like an irresponsible disaster! When you say he sticks it in when you're asleep do you mean his cock? If so that is really not right! It will be hard but I think you need to bin him. Be on your own and the chances are that you will meet someone else who makes you feel cared for etc and also respects you. Im sorry but it doesn't sound like this man does.
The short answer: 'Yes'
Read your post but substitute your name for one of someone you care about....or come to that, anyone. How would you advise them?
No doubt about it - get out of this relationship and stay out.
After reading your post, I need a brandy
And you continue to indulge and sleep with this oxygen thief because... ? Are you hoping for 5 minutes of fame on the JK show?
Can you not see how damaging this is for your dc?
I know it sounds terrible all wrote down, I even wrote down not last night the night before all the reasons and things he's done and I filled an A4 paper both sides.
So why do I feel I'm making the wrong decision
because you don't want to be alone and think that being with a twat is better than being alone?
All of it is wrong! It's absolutely unhealthy especially for your children that is not an example any child should have as a healthy relationship!
Never let him in again! Lovingfreedom is absolutely right imagine what advice would you give to someone else if they were in your situation??? ISn't it obvious?
You feel like you're making a wrong decision because he's a manipulative twat, when things get bad he tells you what you want to hear and you choose to believe him...
He'll never make you truly happy because he has no interest in anyone else but himself it's obvious!
Just don't ever let him back in again. you deserve better, anyone would!
Because this kind of drama is exciting and addictive? You want to believe that deep down he loves you...that perfect kind of love that no-one else understands? Something like that?
If you won't think about what's good for you, think of what's good for the kids. Please!!
But I'm normally on my own, jheeze it's only been a few months have no idea why I became so attached. I was crying last night because it's my birthday next month and I won't have anyone to spend it with, how pathetic is that.
Have to remind myself why I like being single, and having a knob jockeying manchild isn't the same as a partner.
Run OP, run and don't look back!
This man has history, likes the women, you want him to choose you.... He will never be exclusive.
There is someone else out there who will treat you a whole lot better than this man ever could. Walk away and go and find him.
OMG you have nailed it, it's almost like a ego boost knowing I'm the last girl standing. <face palms>
I don't even want a man right now, need to get back to me again first, but yes in the future I want the white picket fence type of family not this bullshit and won't ever get this from him.
What's the story with DS's dad? You said you wish you were with him.
OP there is so much in your original post that is really worrying. I can not begin to imagine the impact that this is having on your children.
The most alarming statement is about what he does when you are asleep. If he is doing what I think he is doing, without your consent (because you are asleep and therefore unable to consent), then there is only one word to describe this disgraceful waste of a man.
Please get this abusive b******d away from you and your children.
I was crying last night because it's my birthday next month and I won't have anyone to spend it with, how pathetic is that
Of course you won't be alone on your birthday; you've got dc, a dm, and no doubt other family members and friends to celebrate with.
What you're saying is you dont 'have a man' to spend it with - and that truly is pathetic.
Get a grip, honey - you've come to the right place for advice on how to achieve that end and all you need to do is act on it and kick this bellend in orbit around planet offufuck.
it's so lovely to feel cared about and loved Once you start caring for and loving yourself, you can experience that feeling every day. And you can then put your mind to caring about whether the men you engage in relationships with are worthy of you loving and caring for them.
This twat's clearly a complete waste of time and space - ditch him, get your self-respect back, and start being a positive role model for your dc.
Just another cunty thing to get off my chest, christmas eve he stayed over, and didn't even get up with me and the dc in the morning. They didn't wake up till after 8 either.
With ds dad I get my rose tinted specs on every now and again and become nostalgic, he got deported when ds was a baby so we didn't have no real ending. Only mentioned it in OP as there was a large AIBU of me upset because ds was upset.
I understand what your saying Fin, I had it in my head it was better for dc me being with him and at least dd can see her dad every day instead of randomly here and there but it's really not better for them at all.
Please push that into me izzy, swear my self respect flew out as he flew in arghh
Forget ds's dad - he's history and there's no point in trying to re-write it. In any event, I suspect he would have turned out to be as big a bellend as your dd's sperm donor, albeit maybe in different ways.
You've got 2 dc by 2 'fathers' who are not fit wear the title. It's time to call a halt and take stock of what you've achieved in your life to date and what you want to achieve in the future.
My reaction was exactly the same as distrusting
Run - run like the wind and don't look back.
You know you are worth more than this.
You can do it! Good luck.
Letting go of any relationship, no matter how bad it is, is bloody hard. Especially when there's a long history, DCs involved etc.
But just think for a minute. If your dd came to you with this story, what would you advise her?
You know you do not want her growing up thinking this is what a relationship looks like.
You have put up with far too much from this man, you have to be strong now and do the right thing.
You will be so much better off away from him. And so will your DCs.
If you are feeling confused and upset and can't think straight, when you are the adult who has choices here, how on earth do you think your DCs feel?
You need to get some self-respect and put your children first - and give them some stability.
The man you are posting about is a rapist.
Get rid of him. For your own sake and your childrens'. Please don't let your children think it is better to be with a rapist than to be single.
Gladbags I missed that part.
OP - seriously, what the fuck are you thinking?
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