Hi,
DP and I have only been ttc for 4 months which I know isn't long but have been the longest 4 months of my life.
I have been desprate for a DC for much longer but DP had agreed last year to start trying in Nov so I had to wait until then but the stress and worry and pure frustration is making me ill.
My cycles have gone crazy, last month a started bleeding 7dpo for only two days and it was horrific, I could barely leave the house, I then ovulated super early this month, I'm 11dpo and DP asked me to test last night so I did, BFN again! I cried all night and feel like the biggest loser today.
I have made my self so depressed I can barely get out of bed in the morning, I cry all the time, at nothing, I have had really bad constipation (sorry tmi!) Since we started ttc and I hate myself, feel like the most useless, pointless human being. I hate being around DSD who is lovely but I just don't want her around me anymore. I have turned into a horrible person.
So I want to stop ttc and make myself better again but how do I forget about babies? Pregnant women everywhere, babies everywhere, I can't lock myself in a box! How do I become normal when the only thing I want in the world I feel like I will never have. I'm sure there is something wrong with me.
I'm so lost and desprate
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ttc is breaking my heart, how do I have a break and not go insane?
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