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He wont accept its over, feel trapped

(39 Posts)
Bizkit Thu 14-Feb-13 18:34:40

I know this relationship isnt going to work, big history of unreliablity, cheating(though he says he didnt as we werent actually together, although he was sleeping with me whilst lying about being with someone else), I cant write it all, I have posted previously about everything. After the lastest trouble things just are not the same, I can't forgive as easily this time and I think its just to a point where it cannot be sorted.

My problem is he moved himself back in even though I said I didnt want him to, but he insisted things would get better, roll on 7 months and we are back to square one. Ive told him numerous times I no longer love him and I cant see a future together, but he just says the love will return if I let him try and it WILL work. I think I have just lost all respect for him and have huge resentment, it cant be mended.

He says its not working because I wont commit to it, if I did we could move on quicker, but how can I commit to something I know isnt going to work with someone who I have lost feeling for? We have lived together again for 7 months now and been to counselling but he says I havent tried, which frustrates me alot! Also he makes me feel guilty as I will 'fuck up the kids if I dont at least try and give it a go'! I may not have been fully commited but I have tried to get along, but the negative feelings and resentment are just too strong.He says Im a naturally negative person and never see the positives, but Im negative I think because of all the hurt he has caused me, thats only natural

We privately rent both on tenancy. I know he will not move now and even if he would he has no money at all so has no where to go.

I feel trapped and the atmosphere is becoming unbearable. Any advice??, I work part time but also rely on Housing benefit to top up my rent, how can I get out of this situation, I worry how it will affect kids, but I now realise the way it is now will affect them more.
I dunno if my previous post can be searched for the history, but I really need some advice before I lose my sanity

Bizkit Sun 17-Feb-13 15:43:40

I should of taken more action and not allowed him to come back after I found out he'd been lying about seeing/living with someone whilst we were separated, but that would of taken outside involvement of some kind I guess as he wouldn't go, but at least I still would of been living/claiming as a single parent. I'm so stupid.
I think I'll give CAB a go, see if its at all possible to maybe move area, as its unaffordable here plus I want to see my kids in a better school anyway. I can get deposits but its actually getting a place on part time income, also moving area would mean moving job which wont be easy

WafflyVersatile Sun 17-Feb-13 17:50:11

''the atmosphere isn't great'' because he's abusive and violent not because of you. Why are you feeling guilty? He doesn't feel guilty. He's blaming you. It's not your fault. You have no reason to feel guilty.

Bizkit Thu 18-Apr-13 17:49:43

I'm back again, feeling worn down. Things are not getting better and we are back to a point of barely speaking, but it's my fault because I'm 'stubborn' and not putting the kids best interests first. I dunno how many times I have to say I don't love him or want to be with him for it to sink in. hmm

StuffezLaYoni Thu 18-Apr-13 18:22:50

What steps have you taken towards getting your own place?

PleaseDontEatMyShoe Thu 18-Apr-13 20:00:31

It's not going to sink in, Bizkit-you need to leave.

Have you got any advice? Solicitor, spoken to your landlord, CAB WA, local police DV specialists? There are people who can help you, but they won't come looking for you-go to them with your questions, and come up with an action plan.

You're actually not putting the kids best interests first, but not in the way he means-you're showing them an abusive relationship is ok, one where parents can live physically in the same space but not share love, interests, an emotional connection. Is this a life you would want for your children?

Bizkit Thu 18-Apr-13 23:14:58

I haven't been able to call CAB as he is always about or I have the kids within ear shot.
I really am reluctant to uproot the Kids to a smaller shitter house, take them away from their home, when he will lose it once I'm gone anyway, just seems such a waste. I have been looking at places online, all similar to where I am now are unaffordable.
I don't think my problems warrant women's aid, though I suppose I could just give them a call.
I'm not a strong person, he wares me down, been in bed again all evening after arguing with him, then he just tries to 'look after' me
I just can't believe he is saying I'm selfish and only thinking of myself for not wanting to give this a go, but forgets this is his fourth chance it's not exactly a flippant decision from me. My family don't really wanna get involved, when I try and talk to my mum she obviously doesn't want to hear it, most of our friends see him as some kind of saint as he takes the kids to school and clubs etc, I feel so alone.

AgnesBligg Fri 19-Apr-13 00:13:29

Trust me on this, nothing will change, zero, zilch, until you make a decision powerful enough to overcome the 'obstacles' in your way. Only you can make your life how you would like it to be. Only you.

The advice upthread is sound. Reread and consider how you can use it. For eg the CAB in my area has a sit down and wait day. Get there early and get seen. Or find a family solicitor, tell them you are entitled to Legal Aid (if you are) and they will sort the paperwork for you. Give WA a call, when you can, explain what is happening and they will at the very least give advice that will help you now, and how you can be supported. You may not get a house as good as you have already straightaway but eventually you will, and you can be happy. Good luck.

jynier Fri 19-Apr-13 02:25:53

OP - Think that you already know the answer! Tell him to go! Good luck!

MadBusLady Fri 19-Apr-13 06:43:59

I think you should stop talking to the guy altogether. He's clearly never going to listen, he doesn't think your opinion matters. Stop exhausting yourself arguing with him and make a plan to escape.

You HAVE to talk to someone and find out what your options are, not just look on the internet. You're sabotaging yourself here inventing reasons for things to stay the same before you've even found out what the alternatives are. Of course the kids could move to a smaller house - do you think the armosphere they're in now is doing them any good? Would he physically stop you from making or attending an appointment?

Sorry to hear you haven't got family support, that's rubbish of them.

Jesus christ on a stick OP! shock

Tell him to move out or you will be calling the police to remove him.

You owe this man nothing & I cannot believe he has the cheek to basically say 'you can't dump me'! He doesn't actually get a choice hmm

Also, this is a bad atmosphere for little ones. Once things go sour they pick up on it (if they're not toddlers etc). I know I did.

Sorry to sound harsh but you are not the one that needs to leave & live somewhere shittier because he's a selfish git who has boundary problems.

(I know you it's in his name too but you're the one who'd be looking after the kids so it's in their interests. try that route first before you look further into moving out. Maybe the mention of the police would be enough. Worth a shot).

Anomaly Fri 19-Apr-13 08:00:42

Please call women's aid, it is that bad and with their support I think you'll manage to get him out. You really shouldn't have to move out he should.

And yes, call WA.

He might not have been violent to you but he's still violent. It's a very thin line & the threat of violence is no better than violence itself & certainly warrants a phone call to WA...that & the fact that you've told him it's over & he won't accept it. He has to & the fact he hasn't & is trying to force this situation on you & the children is abusive.

Bizkit Fri 19-Apr-13 21:06:03

I have a number for a women's centre in my area who offer help for DV, finances, legal aid etc, I will have to try and call them next week when they are open.
Yes think it should be him who moves, but he doesn't want to admit he done any wrong so doesn't see why he has too, and says I'm forcing him out and Im not gonna let him be a dad. He still doesn't accept he cheated, as we were 'separated' ,he doesn't take into account the fact he was still coming and sleeping with me and saying he wanted to make it work, and lying about living with another women, how he expects us to move on when he is still trying to justify his actions i dunno.
He wants me to give it another 6months, now he is working things can get better etc but he also needs me to be fully committed, which I don't think is possible when you know you don't want something.
Thanks for the support guys, hopefully I will have a fairly good weekend as he is working most of it, now he will guilt trip me about how hard he works how many hours he does etc when he has been out of work for 6months!
Oh and I think he is getting more frustrated the past few days because he is now working long Hours and can see I cope very well without him here, I'm more motivated, do more with kids get more house work done etc... And he doesn't like it

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