DP and I both 45, I'm a SAHM with 2 school age children. We have had problems for a good few years now. I feel a lot of anger and resentment towards him, feel like a drudge and have episodes of depression...sex is the last thing on my mind! Have zero sex drive...
Dp wants sex, is one of the major causes of arguments between us..now has gone on for years and the whole thing is a mess ....
I have had sex with him when I didn't feel like it 'for him' just to make him happy...but made me feel terrible...He has had tantrums about it - saying I'm avoiding him...etc etc. Accused me of using it as a weapon - which I don't- having him begging like a little dog etc etc... He says he wants me to want to have sex with him ...doesn't understand that I can't help the fact that I don't ...or with anyone else really...
If I am affectionate towards him he takes it too far ...
Have been to Relate (male counseller and I don't think he got the depth of my resentment) and sorted some other things out and we agreed to have some intimate time once a week...but I get so angry with him most of the time and I can't be bothered. Honestly I really feel like I my life would be easier without him...and he undermines me with the children. (ie I have 'rules' like no running in the house - and he will get them running about - and if I say anything says how boring I am ...and nagging again...)
Also I really thumped him just after Christmas ...really lost my temper - shocked myself - had had children around pushing my patience for the hols and then he started ...ignoring me when I asked him a reasonable question...leaving mess everywhere on purpose etc etc...we literally didn't speak to each other for 3+ weeks whilst living in the same house and he deliberately doing nothing to help....
I saw something on TV the other day about a women whose husband wasn't interested in sex so they agreed she could have sex with other people...
Suggested that to Dp, as he thinks if we had regular sex it would all be ok, and he has had a fit - he only wants sex with me, doesn't want the children to know (doesn't believe they would never find out), and I have been leading him on by saying that we can have sex when I feel like it ...and now he isn't speaking to me again (and behaving like a lazy pig again....)
I think that might give us the breathing space to become friends again...
He says I am trying to spoil everything...and he wouldn't leave because of the children etc etc
Really really can't face him being stroppy again for the next few weeks...
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Was going to hijack -'how important is sex to you thread' but decided better start my own...
Iwanttorunaway · 12/02/2013 16:43
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