I have name changed as I would hate DH to see this & he knows my usual NN.
Last night DH & I had sex. It was completely consensual, I wasn't forced to do anything.
However this morning I feel dirty, disgusted & almost violated. My head isn't in a good place anyway (seeing GP & referred to CMHT for depression). An ex forced himself on me years ago so I vaguely understand what that feels like, and don't understand how to get past this. I can't tell my DH how I feel, he'd be devastated.
Can I reiterate I WASN'T forced into anything, a lot of this comes from my very confused feelings about sex generally, but this is bad & I had to force myself to kiss him goodbye this morning.
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ItsMeInHiding · 23/01/2013 11:08
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