Apologies in advance for the miserable post...
I'm sat here crying whilst DD who is 6 months old is in her walker watching Muppets Christmas Carol. She makes me the happiest that I have ever been, she is my best friend and ultimately she is my world. Christmas is my favourite time of year, and this one should be extra special with it being the first one with her here.
The problem is with DH. For the past two years he has been verbally very abusive. He has completely bullied me to the point that I just cry all of the time. I don't think I have ever felt so lonely or hopeless in all of my life.
2 months after DD was born we almost went our seperate ways, but due to being new parents I gave him another chance, on the promise that he saw a Dr because he obviously has issues that weren't there before. (we've been together for 7 years.) He has since been diagnosed with depression and has therapy once a week. He's being treated for his depression, and also for anger management.
At the same time he is applying for new jobs because he is unhappy in the one he has and we don't have enough money between us. He's just found out that he didn't get a job he really wanted, and I dreaded talking to him about it. He's gone completely mental on the phone, saying he can't be f'ing bothered anymore and how this is going to be hanging over him all Christmas now. I said that maybe we should just cancel Christmas then if that's the way he feels, to which he was really nasty about.
He talks to me like I'm a piece of dirt, he's lazy, selfish and he isn't getting any better from his therapy. All he ever goes on about is how miserable he is, and how hard done to he is. Yet we have a lovely home, a beautiful daughter and our health. He never wants to hear how I feel, when the fact is that I feel totally heartbroken and if I didn't have DD I don't think I'd have the strength to go on anymore. I've lost a tonne of weight, I'm always shattered, and I have to stay happy and positive in front of DD because I'd never want her to know I'm unhappy.
I'm not sure there's even a point to this thread, I think I was just bordering on a panic attack and I needed to vent.
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MahnaMahna · 22/12/2012 13:35
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