Currently with BF, although it has never been "official" on and off for around 20 months. I am always the one to back off. Dont feel i can commit, lots has happened in a short space of time, including problems with his exW and contact with his son, me getting divorced, me getting pregnant by him, then having miscarriage.
I have not had any space and dont feel i can meet his needs.. very needy and of course my ds comes first. An incident where he grabbed me, although he has apologised. When I end it, i seem to go back about 6 weeks later. I feel low etc alone..
In my heart of hearts i dont think he is completely right for me, but i cant seem to break away.
I dont want this hanging over me into another new year. I am confused myself. It is making me feel stressed and distracted. I like to see him, but sometimes just feel invisible, overpowered and not heard. I feel miserable a lot of the time. I am thinking of ending it quite soon, I know it isnt good timing before Christmas. I am frightened of being alone again and when i am not with him, i feel like i love him. When i am with him, i feel i cant breathe. It doesnt make sense. Help anyone? anyone else found themselves so confused like this?
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why cant i let go?
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dipndunk · 16/12/2012 18:12
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