I was abused by 2 of my brothers from when i was little.
One far greater than the other.
1-the less 2 the greater.
- Use to do oral things to me ages 7-9. Then stopped.
- Use to make me dance, give oral with mouth, use to mastutbate him. Hes the big achiever in the family, has a degree. Early memory i can think if is 4-9
Today i went conselling due to another matter and it nearly slipped out infront of my mum.
My mum and dad DO NOT know of the abuse and cant ever tell them. Im sitting here crying
I have a son now, whos a few weeks old and 2, is coming down soon to vist his nephew. I feel sick, shaking, cant sleep.
I blamed my problems on a family memeber passing when i was younger but its not. I almost feel ashamed as now i know what games they played and how they messed my head up.
I have no friends either, i am not with the father of the baby(hes the only soul i have told) he strugged it off.
I dont want to spill it as my whole family will be torn apart but i have turned so protective over my son its making me ill. I wont anyone change his nappy nor dress/unchanged him.