Something my exP has just said has really, really hurt me more than anything else, but I can't work out why that is. It's nagging away at me though, so any help working it out would be hugely appreciated.
Quick background: he has anger issues, and terrible childhood issues. Mostly confined to shouting, swearing, snapping at unpredictable things, but when it turned to shoving I couldn't take it anymore and ended it. He has history for having affairs, in fact the first five months we were together he was texting an ex with all sorts of loving messages (I didn't know any of this at the time).
Throughout our relationship he's accused me on a number of occasions of having an affair - which I found deeply upsetting because I couldn't believe he would think so little of me. We only split up two months ago and there's been some communication between us - he's getting counselling and therapy to try and sort out his anger and behaviour. I've crumbled pretty badly and am struggling to cope. Then yesterday he asks me to tell him if I'm seeing someone else now.
So why does that hurt so much? The closest I can get is along the lines of his not believing that I loved him - that I went through all that shit trying to help him and made myself miserable - but that he doesn't think I meant it? It feels like it was all worthless, if he doesn't actually believe in the love and the pain I went through?
Argh. I can't work it out. Any insights at all?
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NoMoreNotNever · 07/10/2012 09:42
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